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I miss April, yeah no matter how much I been trying to deni it, I do. :/ All she does is confuse me, because she broke her neck to try and get me not to hate her and to be her friend. So I gave in and became her friend, and even though we were only friends she keeps telling me she still loves me. Its like she's fucking with me and I just wanna stab her. Then the other night I got all sad because it finale hit me like 2 weeks later how much I miss her. I tired to tell her that that night and I dunno maybe its because I was stoned off my ass that night but she seemed not to care. So since that night I have refused to talk to her at all. I cant do the friend thing anyway, its too hard to be friends with someone you love with all your heart. That girl was my world. I just wish she could see what she's been doing to me. Its killin me still because I had no closure, I seriously still don't know what went wrong. More shit should have been cleared up before we broke up but she never told me anything, anything I could understand for that matter. I hate her. >< Yeah yeah I know I hate her really means I love her. Blah blah, but no matter how much I know I still love her, I still hate her all the same. :/