i hate freshman
i mean i guess i knew i waasn't going to make it...but i was sad when i saw it. i deffintily know i'm not good enough becuase i was just watching and looking at them practice and thought am i good enough for this and i thougth no..seriously. I still was hoping that he saw that something in me. Maybe it was the fact that i went to all the indoor practices or the way i actually play in the game. but on the other hand i didn't do indoor outside of school, which means i am to blame. no one else. I really wanted to play varsity. I really wanted to be apart of the varsity team, JV is so different and i really want to get better. But i do understand that the other girls that got choosen had something better and thats ok. I'm use to people always being betterthan me. I almost don't care anymore, except i love soccer so much so so so much, i wish i was good enough to show it. i almost felt lost today, that i didn't even care about soccer anymore when i saw the list. I felt like i should give up. But i know i shouldn't i just want to feel wanted on the team and that i'm an important part. I didn't feel that and that's what makes me sad too.