don't lecture me on being positive, please.
i'm tired of feeling ugly.
the sad thing is, i think the only thing that will make me feel less ugly and gross is a boy.
and that's not a good thing.
i just want the same attention that everyone else gets.
why is it always me that's the "nice" girl, the "friend" girl, the "goody two shoes" girl, the "smart" girl, the "funny" girl, the "shy" girl..but never the girl any guy thinks is worth dating.
i really don't need to hear a bunch of bull crap saying "you ARE pretty and those things ARE good qualities and the right guy WILL come along." because you know what? i've been waiting.
i'm probably one of 2 people i know who's NEVER had a boyfriend. and that's depressing.
i don't CARE if he's not the man i'll marry. i'm not looking for that. at all.
i just want someone to cuddle with and be cute with and talk to and hang out with and have fun with. someone to confide in and grow spiritually with. someone to think about me all the time and call me just to see how i'm doing. someone to laugh with me and cheer me up when i don't feel well.
apparently that's just too much to ask for.
i just don't get it.
and no, this is not directed at anyone. because there is no one in my life right now. no prospects, no potentials. and that's what hurts. there's no one to give me that motivation to get up in the morning because i know i get to see him. i miss that feeling.
i want to like someone.
i want someone to like ME for a change.
someone who i like back.
not a stalker-freak who likes me.
that's not cool. trust me. it's weird.
a mutual liking.
is that too much to ask for?
apparently. it really is.
the sad thing is, i think the only thing that will make me feel less ugly and gross is a boy.
and that's not a good thing.
i just want the same attention that everyone else gets.
why is it always me that's the "nice" girl, the "friend" girl, the "goody two shoes" girl, the "smart" girl, the "funny" girl, the "shy" girl..but never the girl any guy thinks is worth dating.
i really don't need to hear a bunch of bull crap saying "you ARE pretty and those things ARE good qualities and the right guy WILL come along." because you know what? i've been waiting.
i'm probably one of 2 people i know who's NEVER had a boyfriend. and that's depressing.
i don't CARE if he's not the man i'll marry. i'm not looking for that. at all.
i just want someone to cuddle with and be cute with and talk to and hang out with and have fun with. someone to confide in and grow spiritually with. someone to think about me all the time and call me just to see how i'm doing. someone to laugh with me and cheer me up when i don't feel well.
apparently that's just too much to ask for.
i just don't get it.
and no, this is not directed at anyone. because there is no one in my life right now. no prospects, no potentials. and that's what hurts. there's no one to give me that motivation to get up in the morning because i know i get to see him. i miss that feeling.
i want to like someone.
i want someone to like ME for a change.
someone who i like back.
not a stalker-freak who likes me.
that's not cool. trust me. it's weird.
a mutual liking.
is that too much to ask for?
apparently. it really is.