Sickness makes me think..
Today we got yearbooks...one more reminder that we're nearly through.
You know, most people are so ready to graduate and move on and be done with high school. I know that I will be ready and feel better as soon as I go to college, but right now...I'm not. There's something comforting about knowing that you'll see your best friend every single day when you walk into the school. Something about the fact that your teachers know you so well because you've now had them for 4 years. Something about the safety we feel, that we sometimes take for granted.
Something about coming home every single night and being able to talk to my family.
I don't know if I'm ready this very instant to leave all of that behind. The next few weeks are all going to happen so fast and I'm not going to be able to stop and take in all of the final ending moments. In the blink of an eye, there are people I'll never see again.
I'm not going to lie, I was sitting on my car after school today all by myself and I just kept thinking about the end. And yes, as I sat there looking around at all the other people hanging out and laughing, I had tears in my eyes. It wasn't that I felt alone, not at all. It was that I actually realized how safe and comfortable I felt, and I don't want that to go away.
Tomorrow and Friday marks another ending...my last play at Butler. I've done many, so it's not going to be the easiest thing to end. Such a great group of people whom I love dearly and will have to work hard to go one without them.
Anyways, you should come see our last play...Thursday and Friday night at 7:00. 3 bucks.
You know, most people are so ready to graduate and move on and be done with high school. I know that I will be ready and feel better as soon as I go to college, but right now...I'm not. There's something comforting about knowing that you'll see your best friend every single day when you walk into the school. Something about the fact that your teachers know you so well because you've now had them for 4 years. Something about the safety we feel, that we sometimes take for granted.
Something about coming home every single night and being able to talk to my family.
I don't know if I'm ready this very instant to leave all of that behind. The next few weeks are all going to happen so fast and I'm not going to be able to stop and take in all of the final ending moments. In the blink of an eye, there are people I'll never see again.
I'm not going to lie, I was sitting on my car after school today all by myself and I just kept thinking about the end. And yes, as I sat there looking around at all the other people hanging out and laughing, I had tears in my eyes. It wasn't that I felt alone, not at all. It was that I actually realized how safe and comfortable I felt, and I don't want that to go away.
Tomorrow and Friday marks another ending...my last play at Butler. I've done many, so it's not going to be the easiest thing to end. Such a great group of people whom I love dearly and will have to work hard to go one without them.
Anyways, you should come see our last play...Thursday and Friday night at 7:00. 3 bucks.