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I had a revelation today. I was talking to my mom about college and if I'm doing the right thing by going to App instead of UNC. In fact, I almost made an implusive decision to change my college plans...then I realized why. And I realized something about myself.
I've never been over and I never will be over it. No matter how long I live, that will live along with me. I mean, heck it has for so long already. I should probably do something about it, but I don't think I'm strong enough to. I would if I was, though. I think I can make it the rest of the year and not say anything about it, and then I'll be okay. If it happens, maybe it'll happen this summer. Besides...if it's meant to happen...it'll happen no matter where I go to school. It'll find a way to happen. God will find a way to tell me what to do. He will make this happen or he won't. Maybe it's not in my hands, and I shouldn't make it my job to try.
"You do your thing, I'll do mine. You go your way, I'll go mine. And if we end up together, it's beautiful." Boy Meets World
"Don’t risk anything you aren’t willing to lose" BMW
..both of those sort of apply. to different points.
That was really vague, but this entry was for me. I needed to write that down.
"I can't say certain things, so I write them down, that's how I get them out. Now I do that for myself and not for anyone else."- BMW yet again.
Apparently Boy Meets World is like inside my head and knows like exactly whats going on...creepy.
...Am I making the right choice? I hope I am.
I've never been over and I never will be over it. No matter how long I live, that will live along with me. I mean, heck it has for so long already. I should probably do something about it, but I don't think I'm strong enough to. I would if I was, though. I think I can make it the rest of the year and not say anything about it, and then I'll be okay. If it happens, maybe it'll happen this summer. Besides...if it's meant to happen...it'll happen no matter where I go to school. It'll find a way to happen. God will find a way to tell me what to do. He will make this happen or he won't. Maybe it's not in my hands, and I shouldn't make it my job to try.
"You do your thing, I'll do mine. You go your way, I'll go mine. And if we end up together, it's beautiful." Boy Meets World
"Don’t risk anything you aren’t willing to lose" BMW
..both of those sort of apply. to different points.
That was really vague, but this entry was for me. I needed to write that down.
"I can't say certain things, so I write them down, that's how I get them out. Now I do that for myself and not for anyone else."- BMW yet again.
Apparently Boy Meets World is like inside my head and knows like exactly whats going on...creepy.
...Am I making the right choice? I hope I am.