Why?
hey everyone that actually reads my lj. i guess today was okay. im happy with krystina, but i found out that one of my best friends truly hates me. i like wanted to cry when i found that out. and im not kidding. how would you feel if one of your best friends, someone who you cared about just started to hate you. i fell like shit. i dont know. i didnt get invited to the friends birthday party. in fact the friend told krystina that i couldnt come. that really hurts. i wanted to be there for her on her 18th birthday. but oh well. thats not gonna happen. man, i wish i didnt do stupid things when im angry. it really hurts me and also my friends. at least i have krystina. id feel REALLY bad if i didnt have her, cuz then i wouldnt have a girlfriend or one of my best friends. i really miss my friend, even if they dont think i would or do or think that i dislike them. in reality i love my friend to death. shes helped me through so much. i cant ever repay them and now i dont even get a chance to try.