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[lilcoey]

le sigh.
i'm not gonna lie.
i'm actually sick of waiting for him to figure out what he wants.
but the thought of us just walking away from what we have now, tears me apart.

I spent christmas eve and woke up christmas morning to him.
but it's not enough.
if anything.
it confuses me more.

on a lighter note.
justin is still sleeping.
i want to kill him.
i made him get up and start his laundry.
ugh.
i'm sick of sitting here waiting on his ass.
he sucks.
but i love him anyways.
i'm one of the fuckers ya know.
;]]

I think me and Mr. Alongi are gonna hang out today, or possibly tomm.
one of these days before he leaves for kalamazoo.
thats all fine and dandy cause we are still friends at all.
but it's also scary considering what happened last time we hung out.
this will be different.
i'm sure it will.
i hope.
i donno.
I really wish I wasn't so damn confused all the time.

My sister is home.
and 5 months pregnaunt.
the cutest shit i've ever seen.
never thought the day would come when i could touch her belly.
and know there was a baby in there.
I must say... family is the only thing keeping me going right now.