I hate being in a place of waiting!!
Ok so first of i have lost my cell phone. I am hoping it is in my friend Emily's car, but she is on vacation right now and so if my phone is in her car I won't get it back for a while. So that got me pretty pissed off. I was freking out when I realized I didn't have my cell phone. I felt like I had no contact with the outside world with out it. It really made me realize how dependent I am on my phone. Anyway also I still have no idea what I am going to do once this internship is over. I feel like I am supposed to mabye do medical school abroad, that idea scares me to no end because that would involve so much. Also I feel like I will be so far behind in terms of finishing school and getting a job. Most doctors start their practice at around 30. I wouldn't be able to do that until I am around 35. I am trusting in the Lord to guide mew but it is hard being in that place of waiting and not knowing what is coming next. It si kind of exciting but at the same time incredibly scary. But of course I know that the Lord has me in this place so thay I know that I will have to rely on Him for everything. He won't take me to a place where I don't have to rely on Him. I am getting really excited about this internship though. I can't wait to get to work with these college and highschool girls. I also can't wait for that time when I won't be taking any other classes and can come home at the end of the day and do what ever I want and not think that I should be studying. It is going to be glorious!! On a random tangent, I have been finding myself stewing over the fact that I am not in a relationship. I keep asking why and I haven't recieved and answet yet. I do feel like it could be that I am just not ready yet. I know that I have never been in a relationship up to now because the Lord has been protecting me from rejection and heart ache. I just keep asking when. But enough of that rant. I have a test to study for so I should go.