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my year of death continues with another loss.
puss no more. it lived up to 17, it lived well.
the aftermath of this death i came to a conclusion that there's definitely something wrong with me emotion wise as i didn't feel anything. considering i have spent more or less every day of 10 years of my life with this animal, it really weirds me out that i don't feel a drop of sadness. When both of my grandfathers died earlier this year I thought i didn't feel much because well one thing i hardly saw them even when i hadn't moved to london. family or not it inevitably distances you from people who you used to see a lot or spend a lot of time with when you were small. however this cat was i guess the closest thing i had to a sibling and its death didn't affect me at all. the only thing i got upset about was my mum, as she was using the cat as my substitute. now that it is gone she doesn't have anyone to welcome her home.
puss no more. it lived up to 17, it lived well.
the aftermath of this death i came to a conclusion that there's definitely something wrong with me emotion wise as i didn't feel anything. considering i have spent more or less every day of 10 years of my life with this animal, it really weirds me out that i don't feel a drop of sadness. When both of my grandfathers died earlier this year I thought i didn't feel much because well one thing i hardly saw them even when i hadn't moved to london. family or not it inevitably distances you from people who you used to see a lot or spend a lot of time with when you were small. however this cat was i guess the closest thing i had to a sibling and its death didn't affect me at all. the only thing i got upset about was my mum, as she was using the cat as my substitute. now that it is gone she doesn't have anyone to welcome her home.