House shopping
So Im kinda in the swing of house hunting. Im in the process of looking for a house to buy. Hopefully something nice and affordable. Im tired of renting and everything that comes a long with it. Theres so much more to buying a house. Its such a waste of money to live an in apartment building. Even tho my mother and stepfather are owners of the apartment building. Im not sure what im looking for at this time but something that is reasonable and affordable until I have money saved to Build my own house.
I traded my cell phone in and finally got a new one. My camera phone wasnt keeping it charge so it was time to get a new one. I got a samsung. its ok~ Things here have been totally crazy and tiring around here. Wes and I drove down to Boston, Mass on friday. It was totally crazy and fucked up and I will never ever put myself in that situation again. My poor car almost got hit by all the crazy fucking drivers. We finally made it into boston after a three hour traffic to traffic going 5mph. It was crazy. We got down to boston and I was so pissed off. We had to leave. I didnt want to get out of my car. I wasnt impressed. We ended up going downt to Mass to pick up a Computer part for Wesleys computer. We went to wakefeild Mass. Which was bad at all. I so wasnt impressed. It was wall to wall traffic on the way home bc it was like 5pm on friday night.
So I got a text message from my sister today she was very mad at me bc I was talking with my mom tonight on my dinner break about how im looking for a house and what not. My sister was very upset bc she was mad I was looking for a new place. Im sorry but I know shes going to try and live by my mother for the rest of her life, but im sorry Im not a mommys gurl. Anyways
So I hardly talk to my dad anymore. Hes very very weird. I cant stand to be around him longer then 5mins. Hes changed so much. Hes not that same person I knew. I no longer know him anymore. Its kind of sad. On another note hes a drunk. He will never change. I left living with him because he once hit me. Not hard but enough to make me upset and want to move out. He plays games with me all the time. He will call me when he wants to do something and he will want to do it right away. Im sorry if I have plans then hes out. HE cant just want to do something when he wants. I always give him times and dates that im free but he would rather sit home then because I didnt do anything with him when he wanted to right then and there. Im sorry but Im not playing those games. I miss the old him. I wish I could change the way he acts but I cant.
Theres so many things I could change with my life but this is the way it is. Its the way its going to stay. I no longer have time to hang out with friends. I have a full time job. When im not working Im relaxing. Its a different ball game working 40 hrs a week. its good for me. Its good to know Im not poor all the time. I like it. Im actually looking for a second job to work on my two days off which are fridays and sundays. I mean sure the bank pays me well but whats the harm working a few more hours somewhere else.
I think Ive come to realize I dont want kids in my life. I love them very much but its not something I want to deal with. I dont want the bills or the head ach for that matter. I want to travel and do everything possible. I honestly dont have the patients for kids. I already have a bunch of neices and newphews. Thats fine I can take them whenever I want to. I like the life I live. I hardly have enough time for myself. :-)
I went to see my cousin yesterday (which we consider each other sisters) were really close and I lived with her every summer for 5years. It was good to see her. Her baby boy is getting so big. Hes one of the cutest boys ive seen. Hes now 6 months. Hes getting to big hes a cute and everytime I look at him he just smiles away. I love him. hes my newphew. Hes handsome. Ive realized I miss working at funtown. When I drove by it left all the good memories see as it was open. I miss all the fun great people. I miss how candice was always weird when I walked into her office and how she would pick on my because I was so shy~ The fact is im not shy anymore. Or most of the time im not shy. Ive learned that I need to have a voice because if I dont everyones going to take advantage of me. I msis it tho. I miss the family inviroment. I miss seeing everyone everyday. I dont miss the drama that was always happening tho.
Wow, I dont think Jess B is a live anymore. I havent seen her online nor have I heard from her. I hope everything is ok with her. I miss everything with her. I miss u megan too. You were the highlight of all my days. Someone who always wanted to see me. :-) Your still my best friend.
Aww and how I miss all the parties esp. the ones on the beach that derek, jill, megan, bryan, and jp. I remember bomb fires on the ocean. I remember drinking and everyone thought I was drunk. Good times. I remember after jill dropped me off at home at my cousins house I was fallin up the stairs just to get into the house and my cousin was so mad at me when she found out I was drunk. What good memories. Now I get its time to leave my good thoughts for the night. :-)
I traded my cell phone in and finally got a new one. My camera phone wasnt keeping it charge so it was time to get a new one. I got a samsung. its ok~ Things here have been totally crazy and tiring around here. Wes and I drove down to Boston, Mass on friday. It was totally crazy and fucked up and I will never ever put myself in that situation again. My poor car almost got hit by all the crazy fucking drivers. We finally made it into boston after a three hour traffic to traffic going 5mph. It was crazy. We got down to boston and I was so pissed off. We had to leave. I didnt want to get out of my car. I wasnt impressed. We ended up going downt to Mass to pick up a Computer part for Wesleys computer. We went to wakefeild Mass. Which was bad at all. I so wasnt impressed. It was wall to wall traffic on the way home bc it was like 5pm on friday night.
So I got a text message from my sister today she was very mad at me bc I was talking with my mom tonight on my dinner break about how im looking for a house and what not. My sister was very upset bc she was mad I was looking for a new place. Im sorry but I know shes going to try and live by my mother for the rest of her life, but im sorry Im not a mommys gurl. Anyways
So I hardly talk to my dad anymore. Hes very very weird. I cant stand to be around him longer then 5mins. Hes changed so much. Hes not that same person I knew. I no longer know him anymore. Its kind of sad. On another note hes a drunk. He will never change. I left living with him because he once hit me. Not hard but enough to make me upset and want to move out. He plays games with me all the time. He will call me when he wants to do something and he will want to do it right away. Im sorry if I have plans then hes out. HE cant just want to do something when he wants. I always give him times and dates that im free but he would rather sit home then because I didnt do anything with him when he wanted to right then and there. Im sorry but Im not playing those games. I miss the old him. I wish I could change the way he acts but I cant.
Theres so many things I could change with my life but this is the way it is. Its the way its going to stay. I no longer have time to hang out with friends. I have a full time job. When im not working Im relaxing. Its a different ball game working 40 hrs a week. its good for me. Its good to know Im not poor all the time. I like it. Im actually looking for a second job to work on my two days off which are fridays and sundays. I mean sure the bank pays me well but whats the harm working a few more hours somewhere else.
I think Ive come to realize I dont want kids in my life. I love them very much but its not something I want to deal with. I dont want the bills or the head ach for that matter. I want to travel and do everything possible. I honestly dont have the patients for kids. I already have a bunch of neices and newphews. Thats fine I can take them whenever I want to. I like the life I live. I hardly have enough time for myself. :-)
I went to see my cousin yesterday (which we consider each other sisters) were really close and I lived with her every summer for 5years. It was good to see her. Her baby boy is getting so big. Hes one of the cutest boys ive seen. Hes now 6 months. Hes getting to big hes a cute and everytime I look at him he just smiles away. I love him. hes my newphew. Hes handsome. Ive realized I miss working at funtown. When I drove by it left all the good memories see as it was open. I miss all the fun great people. I miss how candice was always weird when I walked into her office and how she would pick on my because I was so shy~ The fact is im not shy anymore. Or most of the time im not shy. Ive learned that I need to have a voice because if I dont everyones going to take advantage of me. I msis it tho. I miss the family inviroment. I miss seeing everyone everyday. I dont miss the drama that was always happening tho.
Wow, I dont think Jess B is a live anymore. I havent seen her online nor have I heard from her. I hope everything is ok with her. I miss everything with her. I miss u megan too. You were the highlight of all my days. Someone who always wanted to see me. :-) Your still my best friend.
Aww and how I miss all the parties esp. the ones on the beach that derek, jill, megan, bryan, and jp. I remember bomb fires on the ocean. I remember drinking and everyone thought I was drunk. Good times. I remember after jill dropped me off at home at my cousins house I was fallin up the stairs just to get into the house and my cousin was so mad at me when she found out I was drunk. What good memories. Now I get its time to leave my good thoughts for the night. :-)