Only Time Will Tell

[lilchango]

I just got my heart broken really bad and it sucks. I am crying still as I write this entry to my journal. I won't mention any names but someone very important in my life is leaving to San Francisco and most likely not coming back. By now yu all should know who I am reffering to. As soon as I heard him tell me he was leaving to frisco, cuz of housing dificulties, I was just completely speechless. I couldn't believe it and no matter how many times yu tell yurself "yu have to be strong" yu always seem to brake down. I wanted to be strong and not let in to my feelings but I couldn't resist. I ended up loosing it and let my feelings completely take over. This happened approximately 6 hours ago but I am still not able to recover from it. I am seriously considering running away from home and heading to frisco with him. I believe... I know dat my bond with him is deeply strong, my trust for him is infinit, and my love for him is endless. We have talked on many occasions on the subject of our lifes. We would talk about getting married first of all and later getting a house just for the both of us (or the three of us). Adopting an african american child (male) and proclaiming it as our own. We would talk about him going to work and saying "bye sweety" and me staying home taking care of our little boy and having dinner ready for him when he arrived. I know this all seems rather foolish and to us it was a good laugh but ironiclly in the situation we are in right now, It suddenly dosn't seem so foolish anymore. I can't let him go because he in embroided in my heart and soul. I cannot simply forget him as if of old news. He means the world to me and I would prefer nottin else than to be with him wherever it is our destinations take us.
Mohandas K. Gandhi once said...
"Does Not The History Of The World Show That There Would Have Been No Romance In Life If There Had Been No Risk?"
Well This is my future and hopefully one day my past. Wat would romance be without any risks? One day I will look back on this day and comment neither good nor bad on how right my decision, my risk, was or how horrible it was. Only Time Will Tell. But ill tell yall this... "Dont Settle For The One You Can Live With, Settle For The One You Cant Live Without" And i know dat Jimmy is the one i can most defenetly not live without. So even if this choice I make is a good one or bad... Im willing to wait by any means necassary, aslong as I am wit Jimmy.