perhaps a little reflection
We are all alone.
It's true. We are. There are things that comfort us and guide us along the way, but when does that become too much? Why are[am] people [I] so dependent on people? These are questions I can't let go of-maybe because my life is hanging on a string right now.
I value my friends a lot. I appreciate all the help and guidance I've gotten over the last couple years,but mostly this past 3 months. I feel like I've traveled back and re-entered an infant stage where I'm constantly longing for help and affection. I'm not exactly sure what really triggered it to exceed its normal tendencies. It's obvious that I have acted in this way almost my entire life, but not as much as now. I recall a period of about 3-4 years where I didn't rely on anyone. I didn't really have too many people to rely on. I was ashamed of what I felt and I dealt with it myself. No, I did not deal with it myself, I just disregarded it. Some of you who know me very well probably know what time period I am talking about. I've been very kept to myself the last few days. I'm trying to deal with these faults myself right now. TRYING.
If everyone is alone and everyone should realize suffering and pain, then what is the purpose of human interaction? Is it mainly for pleasure and comfort? Where does confiding in people become too much? This is a barrier I definitely need to figure out. I feel quite low right about now. Part of me wants to be held, but part of me wants to figure this out so I can conquer things like suffering and pain. This is a large ultimatum at hand.
It kind of sucks that this is happening to me right now, with the holidays and all. I hope you are all having a splendid time.
...But wait. Shouldn't I see some kind of light to this pain? Rather than sulking in my own imperfections?
There are many good things that could come along through this. Most importantly, I will become a stronger person. I will be able to get through things (i.e. relationships, friendships, self-inflicted pain). I will prove not only to myself, but to others that I can do something if I put my mind and heart to it. Most importantly, I will enjoy life (the good AND bad it brings along)
I hope that everyone has a good new year's eve. I had a feeling that this one will be rather depressing, but I'll make the most of it.
Love,
Me, Myself, and I.
It's true. We are. There are things that comfort us and guide us along the way, but when does that become too much? Why are[am] people [I] so dependent on people? These are questions I can't let go of-maybe because my life is hanging on a string right now.
I value my friends a lot. I appreciate all the help and guidance I've gotten over the last couple years,but mostly this past 3 months. I feel like I've traveled back and re-entered an infant stage where I'm constantly longing for help and affection. I'm not exactly sure what really triggered it to exceed its normal tendencies. It's obvious that I have acted in this way almost my entire life, but not as much as now. I recall a period of about 3-4 years where I didn't rely on anyone. I didn't really have too many people to rely on. I was ashamed of what I felt and I dealt with it myself. No, I did not deal with it myself, I just disregarded it. Some of you who know me very well probably know what time period I am talking about. I've been very kept to myself the last few days. I'm trying to deal with these faults myself right now. TRYING.
If everyone is alone and everyone should realize suffering and pain, then what is the purpose of human interaction? Is it mainly for pleasure and comfort? Where does confiding in people become too much? This is a barrier I definitely need to figure out. I feel quite low right about now. Part of me wants to be held, but part of me wants to figure this out so I can conquer things like suffering and pain. This is a large ultimatum at hand.
It kind of sucks that this is happening to me right now, with the holidays and all. I hope you are all having a splendid time.
...But wait. Shouldn't I see some kind of light to this pain? Rather than sulking in my own imperfections?
There are many good things that could come along through this. Most importantly, I will become a stronger person. I will be able to get through things (i.e. relationships, friendships, self-inflicted pain). I will prove not only to myself, but to others that I can do something if I put my mind and heart to it. Most importantly, I will enjoy life (the good AND bad it brings along)
I hope that everyone has a good new year's eve. I had a feeling that this one will be rather depressing, but I'll make the most of it.
Love,
Me, Myself, and I.