Nov 21, 2005 21:00
I hate when doctors freak you out and are like well....it looks kinda suspicious so we'll take a look at it...but im sure everything is fine.....if you are so fricken sure everything is fine...then why make people worry in the first place....
Im sorry im just sick of people telling me they have to get tests run cuz the doctors think there might be something suspicious and getting me all worried...even though they say it will probably be fine...i guess i just get anxious about things and always think the worst will come out of a situation...pessimism i know it not good....but its kinda hard not to be for me sometimes...ive always been one to look to what could go wrong in any situation....
I'm sorry i've just had a lot of friends lately who have been going through things with their parents having cancer, or being sick...and it really makes me think about my own parents...and even myself....my mom tells me how my dads blood pressure is high...or how she has to get tested because she has some suspicious stuff going on with her and they want to make sure it isnt colon cancer cuz it runs in our family.....i just dont like all this what if bullshit....it makes me nervous and i hate it...i cant imagine living life without either one of my parents and i feel so bad for people that have to go through that.....
Sorry this is all just kinda hitting me cuz i had some time to sit and think today...and i went to the doctor today...and i wont go into the details but she basically said the same thing to me...well it looks a little abnormal so we'll let you know...but im sure everything is fine....well then God why dont you just keep the other half to yourself and not worry me unless there really is something wrong....i mean im not really that worried but still...