looking for hope
When do you give up on someone? When does it become too much, when it also makes you depressed? Do I lose hope because each day gets worse? Or do I hold on to the tiny gripling bit of positive that happens that day? Do I continue to watch someone try to kill themselves right before my eyes? Someone I love and am supposed to spend the rest of my life with. When is it too much? When do you walk away, or would you? I feel like I have no where to turn but down; myself. I'm depressed more than I can help myself, my anxiety itself is enough to kill me. I need to be on meds for both; according to my therapist, yet I have no time because I constantly worry I'll lose the one thing I love unconditionally, how selfish am I to think this way? It should've been me on that bridge last night; not her. And here I am, still with no answers and still clueless... :/