dreams? not anymore..
so my life and my dreams are on hold for about 9 months now..i got hit in the face with finding out that i was pregnant tonight..and yea; its a blessing but at the same time im like holy shit..can i really raise a child? i just dont know..i knew something with my body was going on; but not this..a good friend of mine is already pregnant and then i also found out tonight that my best friend in tennessee is pregnant too; this is great..we're all having babies around the same time..my best friend and i always joked about raisin our kids together and shit but never happening this early..i hope i dont miscarry but i know im not ready to be a mother..what happened between phil and i should have never happened; but we were both drunk so what do you do? i just dont know..its crazy really..my thoughts are insane..so i think im just gonna sleep on this and try to make some more sense of this in the morning...=/