Realizing what you got!
Last night Joshua and I got into a fight and just let it all out which was really good. Yesterday was a really bad day for me but in the end it turned out to be one of the best days of my life. The saying is so true that " You never know what you have until its gone " That statement I know definetly applies to many people and I wish people would realize it before its gone. Do you honestly know what you have or are you just walking all over it? Do you see yourself being with this person for the rest of your life? Are you happy? Can you live by this person through everything he/she goes through? Last night talking to steph and than to Josh made me realize soooo many things. Yeah things have been going wrong lately but also a lot of wonderful things have happened, moving out soon, getting a new car, being with my babie, getting my puppy, making more money at work, being financially stable besides problems here and there, going on vacation, out having fun all the time. I mean those things are all so great and yes there is always going to be those minor set backs but there is so much to look foward too. As long as you have the ones you love by yourside guiding you through life and supporting you in all you do and being with you every step of the way, what else do you really need? I know that no matter what my family will be there ( minus my mother) and my friends and Joshua, I dont need anyone else or anything. I love Joshua more than anything else in this world and I imagine myself with him every step of the way till the day I die. I look into his eyes and fall in love all over again. Josh is a dream come true for me and everything I imagined I would have. Yeah we have littles fights here and there but so what. If you are perfect and never fight than really you dont have a relationship, you need those fights to make you stronger and make your relationship better. If your sitting there thinking, we have never fought once, than there is such thing as too good to be true and soon enough its going to be gone because no guy/girl wants to come home to something that is to perfect, it needs its defaults too. I am sooo happy right now and so in love that its unbelievable and I am glad I realized what I had. I never took Josh for granted but I just thought he would be happier with someone else, but the thing is that neither of us picture ourselves with anyone else but each other. Joshua is my soul mate and just the greatest person I could as for. He is my best friend, my family and my love and thats just unbelievably wonderful!
Joshua,
I love you so much babie! Everytime I look into your eyes I fall in love all over again. You are the greatest boyfriend alive and I wouldnt want you any other way. I love the way you just come out of the blue and kiss me and tell me how much you love me. The way you hold me every night when we go to bed and wake me up with kisses. Your kindness and big heart shows me how much you care each and every day. I will love you unconditionally till the day I die and I promise you that! You swept me off my feet the day we met and till this day you still have that affect on me. Everytime you throw that cute smile at me my heart begins to melt. I love you Joshua and I will be there through thick and thin, I will be your lending ear, your best friend and your love. I love you Joshua Parker, thanks for everything.
Love yours truly,
Laurie Lynn
Steph- I cant thank you enough for last night and being there when I needed you. You helped me sooooo much I cant even say thank you enough. Your adivce, support and loving heart helped me all the way. I wouldnt trade you for the world. I will always be here for you no matter what, I'm a phone call away and you know I will be there in a sec. Like over the weekend * wink* Dont ever change because I wouldnt want you any other way!!! THANK YOUUUU SOOOO MUCH STEPHY!!! You will always be my best friend (lil sister) for life!!!
xoxox LO LO xoxox