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It has been so long since i have updated in here and so much has been going on. Well my grandma from Florida passed away on 12/29/2004 at 12:29, first death I have ever had to deal with in my family. It was really tough on me but I got through it because I had my daddy and my boyfriend. I really miss her, sometimes I cry and talk to her. I feel like a piece of shit for not going to Florida and saying goodbye but it was too hard on me, I wanted to remember the way I do now. Everyone told me she didnt look like grandma, well why would I want to remember her like that? Why do I want to remember her as someone I dont even recognize? I have pictures of us together, my grandma so happy to have me by herside. The day I graduated was one of her happiest moments, she told me when I was down in Florida that she was so proud of me and she loved me more than anything. The day that Steph and I had to go back to St.Petersburg my grandma stood in the driveway waving goodbye and her eyes filled with tears, I think back on that day wishing I didnt have to leave her. I miss her more than anything. I dont know what I would do if my dad ever died or my grandma Jones... I dont even want to think about that. Than more stuff was going on, Conner was in the hospital and my Aunt Debbie... its just been crazy lately.
I am now going to school Monday and Thursday nites and Tuesday days with Steph, its fun just because I know someone and we car pool and stuff. I am doing really good in school and really trying hard to get my grades good and make a good career for myself but I also got a job. The job that I am at, is at a TaxFirm being a secretary and I love it, I wouldnt mind staying here and making this my future career. I was just talking to Marc who is one of my boses and he was saying there is possible advanement like being the personal bookkeeper and such and I would love that. My job is really a lot of fun for me and they said they are really proud of how good I am doing and that they have been giving me jobs to do that they wouldnt give a person to do a month or so down the road which is really cool. I like to know that I am doing a good job and showing them that I can do it. I love answering the phones and doing bank stuff and getting peoples w2's together. Working here is probably one of the best things that could have happened for me and its good because its helped Josh and I's relationship because I got a job and soon I will be able to move in.
I have been talking to Tina again which is really good because I really missed her although she may not know that. I seriously have my greatest moments when I am with her. Everytime that I am with that girl I am always laughing or just have a great time. We can sit and watch movies and its just great because we have each other there. Well Monday nite Tina and I got so completely wasted it was crazy but it helped me do good on my quiz the next morning. It was a really fun nite though and we slammed like 4 or 5 beers in one hour, we are crazy girls. Great times that nite. Tina and I have been hanging out almost everyday/nite except the last two nites because she has been hanging with Chris. Yes Chris has been coming around again over Josh's and stuff and I thought I would be nice and get them talking again since they both really liked each other. We'll see if I did a fucked up thing again like the whole Jason thing. it seems like everytime I introduce Tina to someone, I loose her as a friend and I dont want that to happen because she is like a sister to me. Tina doesnt know it but I would do anything for that girl, no matter what it is. T is like a sister I never had, and everyday I am greatfull that I met her and she came into my life. I wouldnt be the person that I am today with her. Well maybe the introducing her to Jason happened for a reason and hooking them up because I met the guy of my dreams and I wouldnt want it any other way. I dunno but I am thankful for everything that Tina has done for me and being by myside all these years. We have gone through our share of ups and downs but we always seem to make it through it. Hopefully Tina and I will be friends for a very loooooooooooooong time! Tina I love you, even though I am kinda mad at you right now but its all good.
Josh and I are doing great, we are really happy and things are going great for us. Everyday I fall more and more in love with him. He always seems to brighten up my day and make me smile, I love that boy! Josh is so good to me and treats me so wonderful. I love that he always knows when to say the cutest things and ughhh i am just so in love. I love are cute little moments together, even if were just at his house watching movies he will lay on the couch with me and cuddle and just tell me he loves me and such. The day I got my job I came over and he was in such a good mood and holding me and giving me kisses and saying how proud of me he was and how he knew i could do it. man i just love having him in my life. I also got all four of my wisdom teeth out two weeks ago and Josh came over everyday and took care of me and gave me my medication and rubbed me to sleep and just layed in bed with me everynite till I fell asleep and tucked me in, helped me walk around, made me my food, just did everything. I mean who could ask for anything more? Josh is just the greatest. Joshua I love you with all I have to give, your a dream come true, I swear god sent you as my guardian angel. you always make me feel safe and are always there no matter what. I know we have our little fights but they only make us stronger, 2 years and 4 months and still going stong, babie i love you and i will always be here for you. I cant thank you enough hunni for being in my life. I LOVE YOU BOO BEAR!
My cousin Heather is getting married and my grandma should be here on Monday so we can go to the Wedding Shower next Sunday and than she gets married in March. Its really cool because she is having her wedding at the Sterling Inn and I have been waiting forever to go there and I think Josh and I are going to get a room but probably the day after the wedding so we can use the indoor pool. Josh might want to get a suite, oh yay! I cant wait for the wedding, I am so happy for my cousin and I love Steve he is a really good guy. Definetly going to party that nite.
Well Valentines day is coming and Josh says he has so plans/ideas of what he wants to do for me. : ) Thats kinda cute I just wish I knew what is was. Josh's family has been getting on him to ask me to marry him but I know its not that. I am positive its not but that would be really cute if he did that. I am only 18 though but I dont mind getting engaged but I probably wont want to get married for atleast 2 more years, save up so many because the way we want our wedding is going to cost quite a bit of money for us to have it. Its going to be so beautiful once we get it though. hehehe.
Well I am going to try and update this more, I got some time to do it at work and things. Hope everyone is doing good, leave me some comments!
XOXOX LAURIE LYNN XOXOX