Impossible To Catch.....

[lilboywilliam]

ok well here's my story i wasn't gonna tell this, cuz i know a bunch of people read this but oh well. Ok well i was goin out with this girl i think my freshman year. we went out for like i dunno 9 or 10 months we were goin strong, man i loved the girl, then i make a mistake(i don't mess up a whole lot but the one time i do mess up, it's big) i didn't cheat on her or anything. that might not have been as bad.ok well here we go...football season had just started up during my sophmore year and i knew i wouldn't have enough time to talk to her b/c football takes up so much time, and now that i think about it i could have made a stronger effort in staying with her. yea i broke up with her....for no reason. i was also thinkin about the saying "when you love someone set them free, and if they don't come back then it's meant to be" i was stupid, i don't regret the decsion now but i did for a long time. that was the hardest football season i ever had and we won 9 out of 10 games. i was waiting for her to call me...or email...i was afraid to call her. i was hurt bad and i tore her up pretty good to. thats why i avoided girls for a while cuz i was afraid to go out with anyone cuz i caused so much pain to my ex and i was just so into her that i couldn't see me not with her. i was afraid to fall for someone. then she moved on and i'm proud of her now. that was hard for me to handle then but now i'm glad for her. a little while after that i realized how dumb i was and realized im only 16 and i can move on before i lose all this time for one girl that i'm not even goin out with....now lets jump ahead a few months...i meet this really cool girl...Paula...i really like her and i think things could be really good between us. when we hang out all she does is make me smile. or when we talk on the phone(well we usually have really good convos but i f-uped this last one) she makes me smile. she's amazing, but she makes me feel like i'm working to go out with her for nothing. like i have no chance with her. i almost gave up on her once before but she called me when i almost gave up the hunt for her altogether i was like "i never had a chance anyway" then i heard jingle bells (thats her ring tone on my phone cuz christmas is my favorite time of year) and she was like "feel free to call me whenever" and that gave me new life, but now i'm getting those bad vibes from her agian i feel like she's shootin all my confidence down. she might not be doin it on purpose and i could just be crazy, or maybe shes playin games with me(you kno how girls like to have fun) i dunno but she never tells me how she feels about me, she never calls me(and that to me means that she doesn't really give a care about me) but then agian we have some really good convos and stuff and that totally boost my confidence up. and i love talkin to her cuz she always brings a smile to my face.( i kno that sounds really stupid but i'm being honest so if u don't like it then lick my..whoa...hey..whoa...hey) i would love to be able to say "yea, I'm Paula's Man" you kno. i think about her alot probly more than she thinks about me, for example every time my stomach growls i kinda laugh and think of her(thats another story just ask me about it she knows what i'm tlkin about) but she makes me work so hard and i don't mind a little hard work but i'm not getting any feedback from her like if i'm doin good, or make her smile or anything. i'm about ready to give up. i was gonna say all that before but now it's my head is spinning with all this stuff so i had to let it out...i hope this doesn't hurt me...

LATER THAT NIGHT

then i got this phone call....it's not lookin good