Jul 10, 2004 23:52
It's been over....4 months now.....there's seems to be so much in the air still. I already destroyed one chance in my life to do something great. I won't let it be destroyed again. If I have to, I will annihilate anything that exists....because no one and nothing will stop me to getting to where I need to go. LOOK...LET'S CUT THE CRAP. I don't care if I look like an insensitive bastard. I don't care if I look like the bad guy. I can care less what you have other ppl see me as, or what other guys you'll convince....but the truth is that I'm sick as sick as can be. I can't think right anymore. Honestly, YOU'RE KILLING ME RIGHT NOW. I KNOW THIS HURTS, BUT LOOK ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I'M THROUGH WITH THIS DRAMA. I DON'T CARE WHAT MY LIFE IS GOING TO BE LIKE WITH OR WITHOUT YOU. I WANT OUT FOR SURE. DIDN'T YOU WANT THAT A WHILE AGO? SO WHY EGG ME ON? QUIT THE CRAP AND LET'S CUT TO THE CHASE. LET ME BE FOR NOW....YOU ARE TUGGING AT ME TOO HARD AND I AM TELLING YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE NOW....IF YOU WON'T LISTEN, I HAVE 5 OTHER PPL WILLING TO SAY IT TO YOUR FACE NOW.
it hurts inside to yell at you about this....but what can i say? you seem to be so chipper now a days.....i can't resolve this peacefully anymore without any pain or bitterness. i can't begin to imagine what i am imagining. I HATE LIARS. I HATE PEOPLE WHO CLAIM MY FRIENDSHIP WHO WILL LIE TO ME ABOUT SOMETHING SENSITIVE TO ME. FORGET THAT. I DON'T CARE. IF I HAVE TO, YOU WILL SEE A SIDE THAT YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN. JUST KNOW I'M VENTING B/C THIS IS SAFE. BYE. BY THE WAY, DON'T YOU DARE SHOW THIS TO ANYONE...YOU KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT. THIS IS OUR BUSINESS.
*all said is a way for me to vent. Don't take it personal. I needed this.