So Sorry...
Many times in our lives....we think....we wonder....and we sometimes carry regret. I have come to realize so much about my life...and sometimes I feel stupid to have thought the good in some people. I truly am misguided sometimes. But now...I will no longer allow such things to happen....Yes....I know I have allowed a silent part of me to remain silent, but I can't anymore.
I know you many find me oblivious....you may lie....you may not tell me or admit to me your thoughts. FINE. I really don't care. This is a thought that should have come out spring 2004. There you are happy as the world gives it to you, but you didn't find it anywhere in your heart to give me the time or day to understand my pressure....my burdens....my shoulders were heavy and you just went on your way to help yourself to burdening me. You had your moments. I know.....but I can't begin to explain my thoughts now. I can't begin to explain the stress you caused me.....I know I can't blame you for anything, and surely I don't. But I do want you to realize is that I am not a fool, and I surely am not oblivious to your actions. Just remember as long as you live, the walls have ears and everyone will always know.....
I'm sorry to say this, but I can't bear to sit here any longer. It's quite....unbearable for now. So, I'm sorry, but I must go....go away... from where? Just a place...
I can't always say what I want....but I don't need to say it. I'm just through with it all now. I'll still remain haunted some of my nights wondering where life takes us all....but I will remain aware and cautious when near.
I know you many find me oblivious....you may lie....you may not tell me or admit to me your thoughts. FINE. I really don't care. This is a thought that should have come out spring 2004. There you are happy as the world gives it to you, but you didn't find it anywhere in your heart to give me the time or day to understand my pressure....my burdens....my shoulders were heavy and you just went on your way to help yourself to burdening me. You had your moments. I know.....but I can't begin to explain my thoughts now. I can't begin to explain the stress you caused me.....I know I can't blame you for anything, and surely I don't. But I do want you to realize is that I am not a fool, and I surely am not oblivious to your actions. Just remember as long as you live, the walls have ears and everyone will always know.....
I'm sorry to say this, but I can't bear to sit here any longer. It's quite....unbearable for now. So, I'm sorry, but I must go....go away... from where? Just a place...
I can't always say what I want....but I don't need to say it. I'm just through with it all now. I'll still remain haunted some of my nights wondering where life takes us all....but I will remain aware and cautious when near.