Unveiling the truth
You know, it could just be me, but I feel myself paranoid. Despite my overbearing optimism that seems to shine so brightly in my day to day life, I have this underlying pessimism when it comes to matters of the heart. I find myself insecure with no reason.
Every embrace, every passing glance, Dan makes me smile (maybe not outwardly, but I do). Yet, I get this fear that someone or something will take him away. I know I need to get over this fear, but it's the first time I have ever felt this way about somebody. aaah.. Look at me, pooring my heart out to a computer. I guess I'll have to say the rest to him in person.
Just know, I may come off as calm but these days, I'm quite jumpy. LOL I can't imagine what my life would be like if I had not come to be with Dan. I'd be a nervous wreck! Lordy, even the most independent people need someone sometimes, and I guess I have found myself in just this sort of need. Now all I have to do is let down my guard.
Every embrace, every passing glance, Dan makes me smile (maybe not outwardly, but I do). Yet, I get this fear that someone or something will take him away. I know I need to get over this fear, but it's the first time I have ever felt this way about somebody. aaah.. Look at me, pooring my heart out to a computer. I guess I'll have to say the rest to him in person.
Just know, I may come off as calm but these days, I'm quite jumpy. LOL I can't imagine what my life would be like if I had not come to be with Dan. I'd be a nervous wreck! Lordy, even the most independent people need someone sometimes, and I guess I have found myself in just this sort of need. Now all I have to do is let down my guard.