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I feel like I fucked myself over by coming out here. I love it so far, don't get me wrong.
But, as a girl who's been single for one year as of today, I'm ready for a relationship again. I'm so sick of bullshit games, and putting myself out there facing rejection. I just want the one person who I can say anything to. I want to lie down next to someone and feel so secure that I never want to leave. I'm actually physically aching in my chest (either than or it's an aneurysm) lately wanting what I haven't had in so long. The problem is, no guy is going to want to start a relationship with me because I'm only here for 6 months. After this I go back to Boston for 6 weeks, same problem, no one will want a relationship if I'm just going to leave for Italy. Which brings me to Italy, where I will spend Sept-December of this year. I've pretty much just set the course to be single for another year. I'm not quite sure why this didn't dawn on me until now. :(
But, as a girl who's been single for one year as of today, I'm ready for a relationship again. I'm so sick of bullshit games, and putting myself out there facing rejection. I just want the one person who I can say anything to. I want to lie down next to someone and feel so secure that I never want to leave. I'm actually physically aching in my chest (either than or it's an aneurysm) lately wanting what I haven't had in so long. The problem is, no guy is going to want to start a relationship with me because I'm only here for 6 months. After this I go back to Boston for 6 weeks, same problem, no one will want a relationship if I'm just going to leave for Italy. Which brings me to Italy, where I will spend Sept-December of this year. I've pretty much just set the course to be single for another year. I'm not quite sure why this didn't dawn on me until now. :(