This one's for you
I hate this moment in life right now, like some days I'm the happiest person and the next day I'm so emotional to the point I just cry for nothing. It has alot to do with you and I know that. I'm trying so hard not to think about you, but you have no idea how hard it is. I miss you so much, not the boyfriend/girlfriend way (in all actuality it was never that way if ya think bout it.) but in the friendship way. I seriously always think back to the summer when I was pretty much grounded from all my friends and all I did was hang out with you and Steve. That was the best times ever!
Sometimes I wish that we have never dated, knowing that something like this would happen in the long run. In which I never wanted TO happpen, but I was willing to take that risk, and look at us now. You have no idea how much your friendship means to me, and that probably means NOTHING to you. When you called me on Sunday I was ecstatic! Realizing "hey maybe he does want to be friends!" When I went to return that phone call, of course I knew you weren't going to answer. I wasn't surprised! Theres so many things I wish I could write in here and I can't because of the certain people who read this.
All I can say is that I'm not giving up and I'm going to keep trying no matter WHAT happens. Theres no reason after all these years of knowing each other that we have to part on something like this.
Ill finish updating later...
Sometimes I wish that we have never dated, knowing that something like this would happen in the long run. In which I never wanted TO happpen, but I was willing to take that risk, and look at us now. You have no idea how much your friendship means to me, and that probably means NOTHING to you. When you called me on Sunday I was ecstatic! Realizing "hey maybe he does want to be friends!" When I went to return that phone call, of course I knew you weren't going to answer. I wasn't surprised! Theres so many things I wish I could write in here and I can't because of the certain people who read this.
All I can say is that I'm not giving up and I'm going to keep trying no matter WHAT happens. Theres no reason after all these years of knowing each other that we have to part on something like this.
Ill finish updating later...