for tha haters!
Hey how ya doin', yeah I'm doin' mighty fine
Last time I seen ya, it's been a long time
Stop smilin' at me, get that look off your face
Please don't even front, stop bein' so fake
I know you do not like me and you made it very clear
You're always talkin' about me from what I hear
Always put me down when you thought that you could
I want you to know that I'm doin' so good
Wasn't it you that said
Thought I was all that and you
Said I didn't have a clue
Wasn't it you that said
That I wouldn't make it through
And wasn't it you that said
That I didn't look too good,
That I wouldn't do too good
I want you to know that I'm doin' so, so good
* HATERS!! these haters hapen 2 be my own FRIENDS.. people i go to school with.. my parents .. my own FAMILY! and i just need to get this out! well i have been depressed and doubting myself and ive had low self esteem for YEARS! and its started to get REALLY old! and i just figured out like why am i so depressed becuz of these people. i felt LONELY and i just felt SO stupid crying everyday becuz of sumbody who put me down.. or friends who did me wrong! and ive realized today that im OVER it! im done crying over these people. i mean if u dont like me I DONT CARE! its very nice to know that u wake up everyday and have SOMETHING to say about me! and as for this man i call my FATHER! i dont give a fuck about what u say! i dont care about all tha critisizm in tha WORLD that u give me! im over it.. i realize that i cant keep being down becuz of you! its really STUPID! yeah your ABUSIVE but i can take it! keep hitting me.. keep calling me names.. keep telling me No.. keep me in this house all that u want too! but im gonna OVER COME IT! and as for friends that did me wrong. i think its pretty fuckin funny that u would think that u could PLAY me bogis like that.. but its okay its alll good! LIFE GOES ON! and im doin good today.. i was talking to a friend of mine LAURAN and we got into an argument and i realized that I DONT HAVE THA WORST LIFE ON THA EARTH and that i need to me more thankful and be WAY more positive and stop complaing or writing these depressing ass entries. THANK YOU! my confidence is very high. i can make it through this shit! FUCK YOU HATERS! fuck tha people who ALWAYZ had rude ass coments to say to me! fuck tha people who dont apreciate me at all. i dont care im DONE doing shit for u! and i have NOTHING else to say to u! and im sure u know who u are! for tha friends who put their BOYFRIENDS before me.. and left me way behind it feels good to know that im not tha stupid one! u'll be comming back around when these boys are LONG gone. but guess what i have no advice to give u! im not a BITCH im a VERY nice person! and im alwayz there for everyone and im alwayz showing love to people that DESERVE IT! and these people dont at all! thanx to tha people who alwayz told me i was fat or that i was ugly.. it only makes me feel THAT MUCH BETTER! i know im not ugly and i know im not fat!
* me and my mom are getting a long a lil bit. adleast we ARE getting along! my dad.. fuck him i really dont care he bitches all day everyday hes a ASS and i have no time for that shit AT ALL!
* school is good i have STRAIGHT FUCKING A'S! im SO proud of myself!
im gonna go do my homework!! MUCH LOVE