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i miss michelle. more today than usual for some reason.
so much it almost hurts. i literally feel an empty hole right now, a vacuous space that i just can't seem to fill or anesthetize or forget about.
i'm just having a rough day...and i'm genuinely tired of people and their bullshit attitudes and their lack of concern for what others feel. i'm tired of feeling like i can't say things. i'm tired of holding my tongue. i'm tired of feeling like this inside and putting up my front the world.
i just want to be me again. and yet there's this puzzle piece missing. god, i just want to feel honestly complete...i want to stop convincing myself i am ok...and actually just feel OK.
divine intervention strike me please. guh.
so much it almost hurts. i literally feel an empty hole right now, a vacuous space that i just can't seem to fill or anesthetize or forget about.
i'm just having a rough day...and i'm genuinely tired of people and their bullshit attitudes and their lack of concern for what others feel. i'm tired of feeling like i can't say things. i'm tired of holding my tongue. i'm tired of feeling like this inside and putting up my front the world.
i just want to be me again. and yet there's this puzzle piece missing. god, i just want to feel honestly complete...i want to stop convincing myself i am ok...and actually just feel OK.
divine intervention strike me please. guh.