shitty people..
i wonder if i'm the only one whose ever felt like this, it seems that way but im sure a lot others have. The feeling where you feel like no matter what you do for that person it's never good enough, and never will be. You try to give them it all & they just shove it back in your face. it's really hard to explain, but if i could; i would. 'cause i tried explaining it to that person & they just don't want to listen. maybe because they know im right. I hate how i feel, and no-one should feel like this. There's that one person whose always there. and won't ever leave. except you don't want them to leave, ever. you love them being there but hate it at the same time. Their the one person who can make you the happiest one minute and bring you down and make you feel like nothing the next. who can say "it'll all be okay." and you believe it and your not upset anymore. Who you think about all the time, and when you're with them nothing else matters, and it never get's old. IT'S SHITTY WHEN IT'S GONE & IT ONLY MATTERS TO ONE PERSON. it's just shitty; all of it is. i hate feeling this way, it kills me. and no-one really understands it. only you can make me feel like a POS and like i don't matter, i dont know HOW or WHY but you just can. and trust me, if you could really understand and feel how you make me feel all the time, you wouldn't even be able to say anything, only because it's THAT shitty & pathetic. You probably won't read this, but if you do, maybe you'll get it through your head how much you really hurt me & don't even realize it. i hope one day, you look back & regret every thing you've ever done wrong to me, because when you need someone to care, i won't be the girl standing there, waiting for you to grab my hand and run. i'll be gone & you'll regret it because you know i cared, so much.
now that i FINALLY got all of that out, i still have more, but i'll let it out another time. My sister's having a BABIE! meaning i'm guna be an AUNT! :) ahhhhh it's amazing. im SO excited for her, so so so excited. i was the first person to see the results & i couldn't breathe. idk why its not me having the kid lol, but yes yes. im guna be aunt jess, how cute :P well, i'm headin' to bed. <3
..don't HATE me.
..don't REGRET me.
..don't ever FORGET me.
..wherever you go, whatever you do,
..don't say that i never LOVED you
now that i FINALLY got all of that out, i still have more, but i'll let it out another time. My sister's having a BABIE! meaning i'm guna be an AUNT! :) ahhhhh it's amazing. im SO excited for her, so so so excited. i was the first person to see the results & i couldn't breathe. idk why its not me having the kid lol, but yes yes. im guna be aunt jess, how cute :P well, i'm headin' to bed. <3
..don't HATE me.
..don't REGRET me.
..don't ever FORGET me.
..wherever you go, whatever you do,
..don't say that i never LOVED you