Jan 04, 2006 03:05
So lately, i've been with the girls. :) & i missed them + they make me smile more than anyone else does, so it's been fun. Break SUCKED for the most part- but i had fun, i won't lie. just thought things would be different. Mm Christmas was good :). i've come to realize. i miss a lot of my old friends. i won't mention any names. i miss a lot of things too. Summer, Sarah Caudill, Melissa Medulla, being little, not having a care in the world besides what barbie doll i get to play with next or what im eating for snack on recess.i missed my family too. I love my Daddy & i spent some time with Mom too. & i learn some stuff i never knew about my little sisters, Chey is like me in a lot of ways & Danielle likes to write stories haha. New Years was fun. spent it w/ the girls once again. & even though we babysatt all night, and spent 5 n a half hours trying to watch the 40 year old virgin. it was still good. i hope this year is better than last, we shall see. Hopefully i find someone who REALLY cares about me- that'd be nice. It hurts a lot when you think you know someone & in a matter of days their not the same anymore. hurts real bad.. especially when you thought that person honestly cared about you. But its life right?- people change & go their own ways. I just thought for once, HEY! maybe someone actually cares enough to stick around. buuuuuuuut once again i'm wrong. HA! when am i EVER right, you know? I've learned a lot from this person. so much. more than anyone else has ever taught me. you know, it's bullshit. we go to school for 12 years and they teach us everything from how to talk to how to do fractions, but they never once teach us about 'goodbyes' or letting go or any of that stuff. what the hell's the point? Well anyways. it was just a shocker. it's true though, in the end people turn out to be the person they said they wouldn't. It's really sad. i cry when i think about it. maybe because that person meant a lot to me, or maybe because they'll never be the same in my eyes. and all those feelings, are all lost. Maybe it's for the better, who knows. Anyyyyyyways* School starts back up again Thursday. FUCK! i hate school. can't wait to be gone. HOPEFULLY i get let into Kennnedy 2nd semester, it'll be the happiest day of my entire school career :) so we shall see about that too. Mmm its 3:30, i'm sleepy, i've already thought way too much. so i think it's time to get outta here. lOve you.
p.s. i reallydo miss the old you, so much.
quote time* you knew it was comming!
She blinked, and he was gone; like some kinda SuMmeR RoMancE<3
Sone days i miss you, some days i dont. There are times when i want to break down and cry, and times when i want to laugh.
Moments when i wish i could bring it all back, and moments when i wish i could throw it all away.
And then, then there are days when i miss you more than anything, those days hurt the most.
when the world says, give up Hope whispers try one more time
you have this way of dipping in and out of site as thing collide
and out of time as it goes by. and you have this way of meaning everything and nothing to me, at the same time.
i am a little bit insecure a little unconfident cause you don't understand i do what i can
but sometimes i don't make sense. i say what you never wanna say but i've never had a doubt
it's like no matter what i do i cant convice you for once just to hear me out. so i let go
watchin you turn your back like you always do. face away and pretend that im not
but i'll be here cause you're all i've got