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idk whats wrong with me. i feel like my world is caving in on me soo fast and i cant stop it. i havent been myself over the past couple of days and i guess i have had a shitty attitude cause thats what every1 keeps telling me. i have been so depressed lately. my grades suck ass, my family has really been getting to me and i miss having a good relationship with my parents and now they feel like they cant trust me nd its the worst feeling in the world. i miss mike so fucking much hes the only one in my family who understands me and he's not here. ppl have been saying things to me that i cant help but get upset over. i feel like all every1 does is judge everything i do and im tired of feeling like i cant live my life because of how ppl might look at me. im tired of the people who i call my friends talking shit about me the second i leave the room and i hate not being able to trust ppl. i feel like ive been drifting away from the people i was once close with. i feel so disgusting lately i dont even want to look in the mirror nemore cause i just get upset at myself.
i have tryed to keep my head up and i have tried to be happy but its just not working for me nemore. im crying writing this because i knoee how much i miss being happy and not having to worry bout the lil things that get to me now. i feel like i cant talk to neone and although i knoe thats not tru its just how i feel.
im sorry for neone who i may have hurt over these past couple of days because that was never my intention.
Alyssa
i have tryed to keep my head up and i have tried to be happy but its just not working for me nemore. im crying writing this because i knoee how much i miss being happy and not having to worry bout the lil things that get to me now. i feel like i cant talk to neone and although i knoe thats not tru its just how i feel.
im sorry for neone who i may have hurt over these past couple of days because that was never my intention.
Alyssa