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pain. that's what i feel today and quite a bit of it.
working is hard today. i have a whole lot of displaced anger and its just coming out as completely frustrated at all the little things that go on here on a daily basis. things i don't normally give two thoughts about.
i had a mini breakdown, a little bit of tears today and i am sure there are more to come once i get home.
i moved on tuesday, back to westland. its going okay, although its only been a few days. i haven't yet adjusted to the fact that home is not where conor is. i have to learn to reconcile that, but its just so hard.
10 pounds are what i've lost so far and i've been working out everyday. gonna try to keep that up. it makes me feel better and the endorphins keep me feeling better. i tried to eat a real meal today, ordered my favorite pizza...but it sat like a rock in my stomach and i'm just not ready for that yet.
there's so much to do, but with school and work and the fact that i just want to lie down for a week...it seems like a mountain.
i am strong, i will survive. i asked work for a raise and my boss is at least trying to find more hours for me to work. its been a long time since i've been independent and i have to remember how to do this.
i'm still in love and today it just really sucks.
working is hard today. i have a whole lot of displaced anger and its just coming out as completely frustrated at all the little things that go on here on a daily basis. things i don't normally give two thoughts about.
i had a mini breakdown, a little bit of tears today and i am sure there are more to come once i get home.
i moved on tuesday, back to westland. its going okay, although its only been a few days. i haven't yet adjusted to the fact that home is not where conor is. i have to learn to reconcile that, but its just so hard.
10 pounds are what i've lost so far and i've been working out everyday. gonna try to keep that up. it makes me feel better and the endorphins keep me feeling better. i tried to eat a real meal today, ordered my favorite pizza...but it sat like a rock in my stomach and i'm just not ready for that yet.
there's so much to do, but with school and work and the fact that i just want to lie down for a week...it seems like a mountain.
i am strong, i will survive. i asked work for a raise and my boss is at least trying to find more hours for me to work. its been a long time since i've been independent and i have to remember how to do this.
i'm still in love and today it just really sucks.