i can hardly wait to leave this place
yah so where should i begin? um how about i hate my family =) they put me in the WORST mood ever. ive been so fuckin depressed lately bcuz of them and like these past couple days just have been the worst. all i do is get fuckin yelled at for EVERY LITTLE POSSIBLE THING and my parents dont even trust me. they literally think im like this bad kid that sneaks around and does drugs. my mom pretty much said so herself that she thinks i do drugs and they dont believe me when it comes to anything. just like yesterday i was literally lost for like a half hr. (which wasnt fun) and my parents had a shit attack and didnt believe i was lost (once again they thought i was sneakin around doing stuff) and my mom was yelling and said she doesnt believe me and doesnt trust me anymore so i didnt even say anything all i said was wuts the point anymore in me explaining anything when u dont even believe me and that i dont even care anymore what they think. my dad is just a str8 up psycho..decided to take my phone away (but i got it back today) and i cant drive for a while. this morning my dad decided to be a psycho some more..my mom was all trying to be nice about it so i pretty much told her to stfu and get the fuck out of my face =) today i just came home and went to sleep for like 5 hrs..i didnt even look my dad in the face today and dont plan on it either, he isnt worth shit to look at..my mom was as usual trying to be nice but im just being attitudy and kinda givin the cold shoulder. and all of this really has nothing to do about me getting lost or w/e its so much more than that. lately ive been on the verge of just leaving my house and never coming back - i cant even explain how much i hate it here. im so sick of this shit, im sick of everything. more than anything i just want to move out, which is why i need a job to get the fuck out of here..i honestly can give two shits where im living as long as its AWAY from here. i seriously would be so much happier if it wasnt for them, and i know everyone has family problems but i go thro this EVERYDAY of my fucking life and im seriously on the verge of like breaking loose..i cant take this shit anymore.
the only thing that like makes me happy are a couple friends and nhan. me and him are better now, we talked and everything is good again. wow i love him, no1 is there for me the way he is i love him so much & if it wasnt for him i would have seriously gone crazy by now. no1 understands me the way he does - i just need him w/ me by my side and then ill be happy.
well once again this is the story of my fucked up life/family
No matter how hard I try
You're never satisfied
This is not a home
I think im better off alone
You always disappear
Even when your here
This is not my home
I think I'm better off alone
the only thing that like makes me happy are a couple friends and nhan. me and him are better now, we talked and everything is good again. wow i love him, no1 is there for me the way he is i love him so much & if it wasnt for him i would have seriously gone crazy by now. no1 understands me the way he does - i just need him w/ me by my side and then ill be happy.
well once again this is the story of my fucked up life/family
No matter how hard I try
You're never satisfied
This is not a home
I think im better off alone
You always disappear
Even when your here
This is not my home
I think I'm better off alone