Something Corporate Day
Well I've decided to post because I felt like it for once. I slept 13 hours or so last night which was awesome and I got some thinking done. A lot of thinking done.
Over the past 5 months or so I have really seen who are my friends are others who just act like it. When I got to football today Ian gave me the dirtiest look in the world and I just asked him what was the look for. He left early with Nick and I finally realized where I stood with Ian. There was a reason that he would pick up when I was around and Nick called but not vise versa. He doesn't really have a plan for me and nick making up he just seemed to lead me on about it. Or at least he is never going to be completely neutral. I would name off the people who have been good friends to me throughout this but I do not wish for them to become hated or mainly I do not want to bring them into the middle of this. This is between Nick and I and no one else.
So anyways I have tried to call nick recently and he hasn't picked up but not much of a surprise there. He unblocked me from aim so I think he wants to work this out over txt or soemthing (if he wants to work this out ever). I am just sick of this whole situation. The whole reason why I asked him the question in the first place ... what this all started over was to avoid drama and not cause it. I just wish everything could go back to normal but I don't think things will ever go back to what they were.
Football was fun, there is something about the soreness I get that makes me feel more like a man. I enjoy the feeling of my muscles aching and having to move around a little slower because I had a good workout. I feel like I accomplished something. Nick and I were not good QB's but nick had a harder pass rush coming at him. We both had our moments. Ian made a beautiful catch and the people with cleats dominated as usual. I need to start running so I am not soo much out of shape.
Work has been alright. I gave myself a really really bad cut on my hand last sunday (almost needed stitches) and it's still healing ... I opened it up at football and it didn't help out at all. Cleaned it up today and hopefully it'll heal all up soon.
Ugh I need to get my mind off all this it has consumed me so I'm going to go do some homework, head off to work, and just try to get it out of my head.
Over the past 5 months or so I have really seen who are my friends are others who just act like it. When I got to football today Ian gave me the dirtiest look in the world and I just asked him what was the look for. He left early with Nick and I finally realized where I stood with Ian. There was a reason that he would pick up when I was around and Nick called but not vise versa. He doesn't really have a plan for me and nick making up he just seemed to lead me on about it. Or at least he is never going to be completely neutral. I would name off the people who have been good friends to me throughout this but I do not wish for them to become hated or mainly I do not want to bring them into the middle of this. This is between Nick and I and no one else.
So anyways I have tried to call nick recently and he hasn't picked up but not much of a surprise there. He unblocked me from aim so I think he wants to work this out over txt or soemthing (if he wants to work this out ever). I am just sick of this whole situation. The whole reason why I asked him the question in the first place ... what this all started over was to avoid drama and not cause it. I just wish everything could go back to normal but I don't think things will ever go back to what they were.
Football was fun, there is something about the soreness I get that makes me feel more like a man. I enjoy the feeling of my muscles aching and having to move around a little slower because I had a good workout. I feel like I accomplished something. Nick and I were not good QB's but nick had a harder pass rush coming at him. We both had our moments. Ian made a beautiful catch and the people with cleats dominated as usual. I need to start running so I am not soo much out of shape.
Work has been alright. I gave myself a really really bad cut on my hand last sunday (almost needed stitches) and it's still healing ... I opened it up at football and it didn't help out at all. Cleaned it up today and hopefully it'll heal all up soon.
Ugh I need to get my mind off all this it has consumed me so I'm going to go do some homework, head off to work, and just try to get it out of my head.