everytime i think i've escaped...
i've been listening to insane amounts of loud music because i've been feeling rather destructive today.
depressed. bored. lonely. anxious. jealous. bitchy. exhausted.
my stomach is all tied up in knots and i'm craving bruises and cuts. my mind is wandering all over the place. i think i am just looking for a physical challenge to remind me that i am alive. all of this mental activity leaves me feeling lethargic and sedated.
on another note, i have to get props to the new version of itunes. i can now see other people's playlists who are connected to the same server as me...and i live in a dorm, so i have TONS of other peoples mp3s to snoop through. i like listening to other peoples music. and i also like giggling to myself when i find a playlist that has like all thug gangsta rap in it except for a few small embarrassing indulgences like cyndi lauper's "girls just wanna have fun" and tom jones' "it's not unusual."
apple rocks.
depressed. bored. lonely. anxious. jealous. bitchy. exhausted.
my stomach is all tied up in knots and i'm craving bruises and cuts. my mind is wandering all over the place. i think i am just looking for a physical challenge to remind me that i am alive. all of this mental activity leaves me feeling lethargic and sedated.
on another note, i have to get props to the new version of itunes. i can now see other people's playlists who are connected to the same server as me...and i live in a dorm, so i have TONS of other peoples mp3s to snoop through. i like listening to other peoples music. and i also like giggling to myself when i find a playlist that has like all thug gangsta rap in it except for a few small embarrassing indulgences like cyndi lauper's "girls just wanna have fun" and tom jones' "it's not unusual."
apple rocks.