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[lilaugust2]

since summer started, ive been feeling, sad i guess. it just seems that all of my friends are coming closer together and im left standing outside. like, jazz is in gulf shores with alissa for the second time, and clare has gone to gulf shores too. it just seems that they are closer together and doing everything together. like i said, i feel left out. i know im going to a different school, but i still want to be close to them. they are the ones that i go to whenever i have a problem. i dont know who else i could go to. i mean, i have other friends, but not like them. i just feel sad and its been driving me crazy. i see and talk to them throughout the summer, but it just seems like they see each other more, and its like they do everything together. and we said that we wouldnt stop being friends because of us going to different highschools, but it just feels like we are. it sucks. i just want to be as close as we were when we went to the same school. i know that its not going to be the same, no matter what we've said i think our friendship may die a little, and it sucks. thinking about this makes me cry. i hate not having enough money, and hearing that maybe next year i can go to father ryan, next year we'll be together again when i know we wont. i know that they will all be tighter and better friends, but im just going to be forgotten and left out. ok, well thats enough for now.
♥what hurts the most, was being so close