Oh, what an exciting life I lead!
Ok, so maybe not the most exciting, but certainly full of drama lately. So, let's see. I believe I left off yesterday after I came home from visiting my mom. I came back and took a shower and debated on going to chapter and decided to being that I have only been once this semester and it was a dressed down meeting anyhow since it was only Angel Actives. WHAT A MISTAKE! I got there and first, Falyn was having drama with Elie and Jen. I haven't been around to deal with whatever has been going on so I just stay out of it. Then, I go to meeting, they don't like where I sit so I get asked to move. I sit by myself until Becky and Stefanie Matthews comes and sits down. I sit through a bunch of girls whining and complaining about everything. All that was announced was things like, go to this or you will be fined, go to that or you can't go to this, do this or you can't do that. I really didn't care about any of those things because, ya know what? I haven't paid my dues yet so I can't go on socials, let alone semi-formal, so what do I care if I send in some stupid event or go to chapter meeting to hear everyone complain? I haven't paid my dues so if you fine me, I am not going to pay it anyhow. Go ahead and do it. This is my attitude towards it from now on. I don't care anymore.
I paid for my shirts which I still haven't gotten, a hundred dollars on my dues, and I got totally insulted by the V.P. Mental. She had the audacity to call out the names of all the sisters that had a 3.0 and higher and told the rest of us that we should look to these girls as an example of how we should be and act. She can freakin' lick my coo!!!! I have a 2.97 GPA which was from some hard classes, plus I am a full time student, and I work TWO jobs, am highly involved in my church, have Pi Phi activities, and I have a boyfriend that I come home and cook for, clean for, and support. Do I think that this extra activities are burdens? No, but I do think that they play an important role. Half of the sisters, if not more, only go to school. They are supported by their parents, only have a couple of classes, or aren't involved in Pi Phi activities or anything else for that matter. So, the next time she tells me that I should look to someone else as an example and strive to be like them, she needs to make sure that they are involved in just as much if not more than me, because I MOST CERTAINLY did NOT appreciate it and I know others didn't as well. Choose your words wisely.
Then, I had asked around for someone to pick up both Sean and Josh last Saturday night. Anessa said she would do it, then, Sunday morning Robert called me and said he would do it as well. Well, I told Robert that if he really wanted to, he could tell Anessa and so she wouldn't have to go. Well, Anessa told me at chapter that she was going and she wanted me to come to to keep her company, but she needed to know the airline, as well. I tried to call Sean but he didn't answer which wasn't a surprise since he didn't call me or talk to me once on Sunday. Then, I checked his email to find out because otherwise we wouldn't have known. I told Anessa it was airtran and asked her to call me to wake me up before she was coming over to get me because I hadn't gotten but just 2.5 hours of sleep the night before and hadn't taken a nap and still had to get up early the next morning for work. She agreed and I went to sleep. At like 9:45ish Robert called me and told me that their flight had been delayed and that they would be here at 11:30. I said ok, was excited to get some extra sleep and IMed Anessa so she would know to call me and leave earlier.
I went back to sleep and the next thing I know, I wake up all of a sudden and realize it is 12:30. I wake up in a panic because my first thought is that they are both sitting at the airport and no one went and got them. I quickly check my phone --- no missed calls, then I IM Anessa and asked her if anyone went to go get them and then when she didn't reply right away, I asked Robert. He was like, yeah, Anessa and I went and they should be there anytime now. Then, pounding on the door. My heart sank. I run to open it and Sean is standing there with this hideous look on his face. He looked seriously ticked off. He comes in, I ask him how his trip was, he was like, good, then started unpacking. He continued and didn't say a word to me. He wouldn't even look at me so I turned on the tv to try to focus my attention on something else. He sits down for a few minutes, then goes and takes a shower without saying a word to me. Meanwhile, Anessa IMs me and was like, yeah, Robert and I went. Is he back? I replied yes and then continued to go off at her being that I didn't have ONE missed call. She had never even bothered calling me. She said that Robert showed up and told her that I had said he could go with her or something and that she didn't question him and they just left to go. However, I still felt that I should have gotten a phone call anyhow. I blamed Anessa for breaking up my relationship with Sean and didn't give her anymore chances to explain by just putting up an away message. I am sorry for that, Anessa. I really am. Do I think that I should have gotten a phone call anyhow, just letting me know that Robert was going instead of me? Yes, but there were already problems in the relationship, me not being at the airport just made it worse. So, you didn't cause us to break up. I still would have at least expected a phone call being that you had said that I was going with you and that you were going to call me. You knew I was asleep, but whatever, water under the bridge.
While he was in the shower, I decided to start packing my stuff being that he hadn't said one word to me and it was well after one. I figured he didn't want anymore to do with me, so I decided to pack up my crap and go home. He came out of the shower, still didn't say a word to me, and sat at the computer. I continued to pack. He knew what I was doing and still said nothing. My fury just grew deeper. The fact that he still had nothing to say just seriously ticked me off. Finally, when I was done packing up my clothes and started with the bathroom stuff, I turned to him and was like, "You know, Sean, if you didn't want anything to do with me you should have told me earlier that way I could have at least packed up my stuff earlier and you wouldn't have had to see me at all." Then, we both started talking about everything that happened. Worked through everything. We didn't come eye to eye on most of the stuff. In fact, we didn't talk about the events of the weekend at all. We just let what was said stand and just decided to put it behind us. Does some of what he did still bother me? Yes, but I am just done with fighting with everyone. I already told everyone my new philosophy: Everyone can just do whatever the heck they feel like. I don't care anymore. So, we put it behind us and so last night was better.
I didn't get to sleep until like, 3:45, then just woke up every 45 minutes or so until at 9:15 my alarm went off for work. I got up and called in. I had like, no sleep the last couple of days and it was just a REALLY CRAPPY weekend. I went back to sleep and then started waking up every like 20 minutes or so. After I woke up at 12 and then again at 12:10, I gave up and just woke up. Sean said he was still tired but I woke him up anyhow. He decided not to go to his class today so we went grocery shopping and got a crapload of food. Josh went with us and Joe, the roommate, rode with us too and went down and got his haircut when we were shopping. On the trip over there, I found myself just getting mad and a little upset again when Joe and Josh started talking about the trip. Then, when Sean was talking about some of it, reminisce of the feelings left over from the weekend just got me upset again. I refuse to fight with anyone anymore, once again, so, I decided to just be quiet. I didn't say anything at the grocery store that didn't NEED to be said. Basically, don't speak unless spoken to.
We finished shopping and picked up Joe then headed home. We unloaded the car and then put away all the groceries. I ended up making dinner, throwing in a load of laundry, and then Sean and I went to a film for my Composition II class. I thought it was going to be an actual movie because that is what the professor made it sound like, however, it was a documentary. It was over an hour and a half and I usually can get into documentaries, however, I found this one particularly dry. It was informative, but just still very dry. Anyhow, I then came back here and did the homework that was supposed to be due tonight but I hadn't done it this weekend for the obvious reasons. It ended up getting the due date pushed back anyhow, but I still completed it. I figured, why not? So, then I have just been writing in this FOREVER now and on that note, since this is going to be super long, I am just going to end it now. Goodnight!
I paid for my shirts which I still haven't gotten, a hundred dollars on my dues, and I got totally insulted by the V.P. Mental. She had the audacity to call out the names of all the sisters that had a 3.0 and higher and told the rest of us that we should look to these girls as an example of how we should be and act. She can freakin' lick my coo!!!! I have a 2.97 GPA which was from some hard classes, plus I am a full time student, and I work TWO jobs, am highly involved in my church, have Pi Phi activities, and I have a boyfriend that I come home and cook for, clean for, and support. Do I think that this extra activities are burdens? No, but I do think that they play an important role. Half of the sisters, if not more, only go to school. They are supported by their parents, only have a couple of classes, or aren't involved in Pi Phi activities or anything else for that matter. So, the next time she tells me that I should look to someone else as an example and strive to be like them, she needs to make sure that they are involved in just as much if not more than me, because I MOST CERTAINLY did NOT appreciate it and I know others didn't as well. Choose your words wisely.
Then, I had asked around for someone to pick up both Sean and Josh last Saturday night. Anessa said she would do it, then, Sunday morning Robert called me and said he would do it as well. Well, I told Robert that if he really wanted to, he could tell Anessa and so she wouldn't have to go. Well, Anessa told me at chapter that she was going and she wanted me to come to to keep her company, but she needed to know the airline, as well. I tried to call Sean but he didn't answer which wasn't a surprise since he didn't call me or talk to me once on Sunday. Then, I checked his email to find out because otherwise we wouldn't have known. I told Anessa it was airtran and asked her to call me to wake me up before she was coming over to get me because I hadn't gotten but just 2.5 hours of sleep the night before and hadn't taken a nap and still had to get up early the next morning for work. She agreed and I went to sleep. At like 9:45ish Robert called me and told me that their flight had been delayed and that they would be here at 11:30. I said ok, was excited to get some extra sleep and IMed Anessa so she would know to call me and leave earlier.
I went back to sleep and the next thing I know, I wake up all of a sudden and realize it is 12:30. I wake up in a panic because my first thought is that they are both sitting at the airport and no one went and got them. I quickly check my phone --- no missed calls, then I IM Anessa and asked her if anyone went to go get them and then when she didn't reply right away, I asked Robert. He was like, yeah, Anessa and I went and they should be there anytime now. Then, pounding on the door. My heart sank. I run to open it and Sean is standing there with this hideous look on his face. He looked seriously ticked off. He comes in, I ask him how his trip was, he was like, good, then started unpacking. He continued and didn't say a word to me. He wouldn't even look at me so I turned on the tv to try to focus my attention on something else. He sits down for a few minutes, then goes and takes a shower without saying a word to me. Meanwhile, Anessa IMs me and was like, yeah, Robert and I went. Is he back? I replied yes and then continued to go off at her being that I didn't have ONE missed call. She had never even bothered calling me. She said that Robert showed up and told her that I had said he could go with her or something and that she didn't question him and they just left to go. However, I still felt that I should have gotten a phone call anyhow. I blamed Anessa for breaking up my relationship with Sean and didn't give her anymore chances to explain by just putting up an away message. I am sorry for that, Anessa. I really am. Do I think that I should have gotten a phone call anyhow, just letting me know that Robert was going instead of me? Yes, but there were already problems in the relationship, me not being at the airport just made it worse. So, you didn't cause us to break up. I still would have at least expected a phone call being that you had said that I was going with you and that you were going to call me. You knew I was asleep, but whatever, water under the bridge.
While he was in the shower, I decided to start packing my stuff being that he hadn't said one word to me and it was well after one. I figured he didn't want anymore to do with me, so I decided to pack up my crap and go home. He came out of the shower, still didn't say a word to me, and sat at the computer. I continued to pack. He knew what I was doing and still said nothing. My fury just grew deeper. The fact that he still had nothing to say just seriously ticked me off. Finally, when I was done packing up my clothes and started with the bathroom stuff, I turned to him and was like, "You know, Sean, if you didn't want anything to do with me you should have told me earlier that way I could have at least packed up my stuff earlier and you wouldn't have had to see me at all." Then, we both started talking about everything that happened. Worked through everything. We didn't come eye to eye on most of the stuff. In fact, we didn't talk about the events of the weekend at all. We just let what was said stand and just decided to put it behind us. Does some of what he did still bother me? Yes, but I am just done with fighting with everyone. I already told everyone my new philosophy: Everyone can just do whatever the heck they feel like. I don't care anymore. So, we put it behind us and so last night was better.
I didn't get to sleep until like, 3:45, then just woke up every 45 minutes or so until at 9:15 my alarm went off for work. I got up and called in. I had like, no sleep the last couple of days and it was just a REALLY CRAPPY weekend. I went back to sleep and then started waking up every like 20 minutes or so. After I woke up at 12 and then again at 12:10, I gave up and just woke up. Sean said he was still tired but I woke him up anyhow. He decided not to go to his class today so we went grocery shopping and got a crapload of food. Josh went with us and Joe, the roommate, rode with us too and went down and got his haircut when we were shopping. On the trip over there, I found myself just getting mad and a little upset again when Joe and Josh started talking about the trip. Then, when Sean was talking about some of it, reminisce of the feelings left over from the weekend just got me upset again. I refuse to fight with anyone anymore, once again, so, I decided to just be quiet. I didn't say anything at the grocery store that didn't NEED to be said. Basically, don't speak unless spoken to.
We finished shopping and picked up Joe then headed home. We unloaded the car and then put away all the groceries. I ended up making dinner, throwing in a load of laundry, and then Sean and I went to a film for my Composition II class. I thought it was going to be an actual movie because that is what the professor made it sound like, however, it was a documentary. It was over an hour and a half and I usually can get into documentaries, however, I found this one particularly dry. It was informative, but just still very dry. Anyhow, I then came back here and did the homework that was supposed to be due tonight but I hadn't done it this weekend for the obvious reasons. It ended up getting the due date pushed back anyhow, but I still completed it. I figured, why not? So, then I have just been writing in this FOREVER now and on that note, since this is going to be super long, I am just going to end it now. Goodnight!