Apr 28, 2006 13:50
i lived! i have survived this week. well, almost i have one more class at 3 and then i am done with classes for my freshman year of college. hooray! and i only cried once this semester(that was last night/this morning, and it was because i havent slept well in a week and i had a ridiculous amount of stress). i was walking home yesterday thinking about how weird it is that my first year of college is over. i looked forward to college all through high school. did it meet my expectations? i think so. i love the freedom, i love the randomness, and i feel a lot more comfortable here than i ever thought i would. its like i have a place here now with friends and classes and a job and a routine. going home is gonna be weird because college is home too. i mean, theres the whole going to china thing in there that will make anyplace american seem like home. but despite my complete and utter exhaustion right now from late night paper writing and almost missing my psych test this morning because i was studying for it, im really proud of myself. i survived this, i did the best that i could, and i know that i can do this now. i mean yes, in my panicky moods last night patrick had to calm me down and assure me of these same things. but still.
we just had a fire alarm. it is cold outside. i want to take a nap, but now i dont have time before class. stupid fire alarms.
when i get back from class i plan to fall asleep and never get up. so unless youre my roomate (which youre not) you will never see me ever again.