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Have you ever realized how hard it really is to let someone go? I am having such a hard time thinking about Josh and Bethany not being at gcs anymore. its devestating. ALl the good times, memories, talks i have had with them ETC. They have ALWAYS been there for me. When i was going thru a hard time they would call and see how i was doing. I know that its God's will for them to move onto a different church. I know thats what God wants...so i want it to happen. At the same time i want it to happen i want them to stay so bad. The only reason i want them to leave is cuz God does...if that makes any since. I will miss them so much. They have gone through things with losing their baby that i never even dreamed would happen...but God knew it would happen and it strengthened them and their faith in Him.
I have realized tonight that EVERY hard time we go through helps us deal for any big stuff that will come our way. I was talking to Jimmy about breakup and i mentioned how i could be so torn upart over a breakup when they are moving forward and rejoicing even with the loss of their baby. I really had a reality check. But then Jim mentioned that they went thru breakups and tough stuff to...breakup with each other even, and each thing/ struggle they have gone trough in their lives helped them cope better with the loss of Melaina. I cannot even imagine how hard it would be to lose a child..and here i am/was worrying about a stupid break-up or them leaving my church. But the thing i have realized is all this is GODS WILL...and i need to want everything to happen according to His will.
I love josh and bethany to death...just like everyone else in our youth group. It was truly amazing to see all the tears tonight, it reminded me and made me want to be at tour tonight. I love how close of a bond everyone at gcs has. it is something i am soooo proud and blessed to say I am a part of. TOnight i feel so touched by God even at the loss of Josh and Bethany. I know they will touch so many other peoples' lives, just as they have touched mine. God is Good!
I love all of you GCS-ers to death...we are soooo lucky to have this amazing support group!!!!
I have realized tonight that EVERY hard time we go through helps us deal for any big stuff that will come our way. I was talking to Jimmy about breakup and i mentioned how i could be so torn upart over a breakup when they are moving forward and rejoicing even with the loss of their baby. I really had a reality check. But then Jim mentioned that they went thru breakups and tough stuff to...breakup with each other even, and each thing/ struggle they have gone trough in their lives helped them cope better with the loss of Melaina. I cannot even imagine how hard it would be to lose a child..and here i am/was worrying about a stupid break-up or them leaving my church. But the thing i have realized is all this is GODS WILL...and i need to want everything to happen according to His will.
I love josh and bethany to death...just like everyone else in our youth group. It was truly amazing to see all the tears tonight, it reminded me and made me want to be at tour tonight. I love how close of a bond everyone at gcs has. it is something i am soooo proud and blessed to say I am a part of. TOnight i feel so touched by God even at the loss of Josh and Bethany. I know they will touch so many other peoples' lives, just as they have touched mine. God is Good!
I love all of you GCS-ers to death...we are soooo lucky to have this amazing support group!!!!