Zach
I really fucked up this time. Yea I thought I had found the guy for me before. But I was obviously blinded with lies. Zach isnt like any other guy out there. Hes such a sweet guy, intelligent, caring, has the biggest heart Ive known. And what do I do? Fuck things up. This time apart from him is killing me. I never realized what I had until its gone. I guess that saying is true after all. But one good thing that came out of this is the fact that Im taking care of myself again. Zach tried so hard for me to do it while we were together but I always put it off cuz all I ever cared about was making him happy, I never cared about myself. Ive come to realize I cant be happy with anybody until I am happy with myself. Now Ive got my life straight thought. Ive gotten a counselor for my depression and various reasons, Im eating a lot healthier, Im taking my iron, and overall Im feeling better. Ive gained a lot of my confidence back, and am completely concentrating on school. Ive been determined not to miss any days this mod in school...and so far so good! I guess Im just proud of myself. Although I wish Zach could have been here with me to see it, things happen for a reason.
In my heart I know me and Zach will be together again. Whether it be months or years down the road, I know we will. At first I was jealous that Zach was going out, and even invited a girl to a movie at his house...and even stay over. But I honestly dont even care anymore. I know nobody will be able to take my place. And Im sure he knows nobody can take his place. For now Im not worried though. If he does find somebody who makes him happy then great. Obviously theres somebody out there better for me also. Hes made me a better person, and for that Im glad I got a chance to be with him.
In my heart I know me and Zach will be together again. Whether it be months or years down the road, I know we will. At first I was jealous that Zach was going out, and even invited a girl to a movie at his house...and even stay over. But I honestly dont even care anymore. I know nobody will be able to take my place. And Im sure he knows nobody can take his place. For now Im not worried though. If he does find somebody who makes him happy then great. Obviously theres somebody out there better for me also. Hes made me a better person, and for that Im glad I got a chance to be with him.