I am one happy girl :)
It's amazing how one person can change your life in so many ways. I went from this sad, depressed, mean, lonely person to the happiest person ever in such a short period of time. Right now, I honestly think I'm happier than I've ever been before in my life. It feels amazing :) Dewayne is such an amazing guy, and for once I have someone that makes me happy all the time, someone that I don't have to wonder about...wonder where he is or who he's talking to or who he's with. He's absolutely perfect. FINALLY :) Being with Dewayne makes me realize what I've been missing out on. All this time, for the past 7 years of my life, I thought Kevin = happiness, but the truth is, Kevin was just all I'd known so he was where I felt comfortable...In reality, Kevin = pain, hurt, sadness, depression, tears, broken heart, cheater, etc. etc. I now realize that all Kevin did was break my heart and step all over it...he never truely loved me because if he did, he never would have treated me the way he did for so many years. And me, I'm the cause of it all. I LET it happen. But, never again. I actually thought that maybe someday Kevin and I would get back together, but I know now that that will never happen. Why? Because I won't ever let it happen. I don't need him like I thought I did for so many years...I don't need someone to treat me like that. He is now in my past and will stay there. To be honest, I don't even care at this point if we even stay friends. That's how much my life has changed in the past month. I have finally found happiness, and I've never felt better :) I really think I love him! This Valentine's Day will be amazing!! :) I'm so happy!