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I miss writing in my live journal...
things have been kinda crappy lately...no really crappy and i miss having someone to talk to.
i hate going around with a smile on my face just to keep everyone else happy when its the last thing i wanna do sometimes.
seriously how is it possible to have so many things and thoughts going on at once. its to the point where i have so many things to think about that im using my xmas break to not think about anything and to do nothing all day.
my xmas break has consisted of:
-not sleeping late because yu know now that i actually can sleep late, i don't and i know when school starts i won't be able to get up at all.
-watching day time tv which really is terrible cuz there isn't anything on and you end up watching re-runs of the show you watched the night before
-showering and getting all ready hoping mr. someone calls me
-working at carvel which still sucks soooo soo much even though i hardly ever work
-spending all day thinking about stupid things like mr. stupid when there are way mre important things i can be doing. i really need to stop wasting my time because we all know the reason i'm in such a shitty mood is cuz i'm wasting my time with him. i really hate how he knows i'm waiting for him to call me all day and he purposely calls me late ...late where its just about the time i'd give up on going out for the night...and then of course i get all happy and jump on the idea of hanging out with him cuz i know he wants to hangout with me...hes just so stupid and mean about it and i dont understand why i care anymore.
and i really hate how my best friend is grounded because i miss her and having her to hangout with would help put me in a better mood.
so now that i've vented and feel a tad bit better..its time to go get in the shower and get ready...for "plans" i dont have yet.
ps...have yu ever written something and know everything yu've said makes absolutely no sense at all because its just so random....not like i plan on anyone reading this or anything because like me everyone probs goes on livejournal once every 5 months or 1 a year or something..i just think itd be funny if someone did read this because they'd see just how random my thoughts are.
its nice to write everything out once in a while.
things have been kinda crappy lately...no really crappy and i miss having someone to talk to.
i hate going around with a smile on my face just to keep everyone else happy when its the last thing i wanna do sometimes.
seriously how is it possible to have so many things and thoughts going on at once. its to the point where i have so many things to think about that im using my xmas break to not think about anything and to do nothing all day.
my xmas break has consisted of:
-not sleeping late because yu know now that i actually can sleep late, i don't and i know when school starts i won't be able to get up at all.
-watching day time tv which really is terrible cuz there isn't anything on and you end up watching re-runs of the show you watched the night before
-showering and getting all ready hoping mr. someone calls me
-working at carvel which still sucks soooo soo much even though i hardly ever work
-spending all day thinking about stupid things like mr. stupid when there are way mre important things i can be doing. i really need to stop wasting my time because we all know the reason i'm in such a shitty mood is cuz i'm wasting my time with him. i really hate how he knows i'm waiting for him to call me all day and he purposely calls me late ...late where its just about the time i'd give up on going out for the night...and then of course i get all happy and jump on the idea of hanging out with him cuz i know he wants to hangout with me...hes just so stupid and mean about it and i dont understand why i care anymore.
and i really hate how my best friend is grounded because i miss her and having her to hangout with would help put me in a better mood.
so now that i've vented and feel a tad bit better..its time to go get in the shower and get ready...for "plans" i dont have yet.
ps...have yu ever written something and know everything yu've said makes absolutely no sense at all because its just so random....not like i plan on anyone reading this or anything because like me everyone probs goes on livejournal once every 5 months or 1 a year or something..i just think itd be funny if someone did read this because they'd see just how random my thoughts are.
its nice to write everything out once in a while.