"My Lilah"
So I suppose most of you have seen this exercise, which I think started last summer with kita0610's "My Angel" list. Behind the cut tag is yours truly's list, and so in the comments, link to/add your own "my Lilah" lists, which can be as long or short as you so desire.
My Lilah...
Understands that there's a difference between right, good, and feeling good.
Knows the difference between wrong, evil, bad, and feeling bad better than anyone she knows.
Believes wholeheartedly in good and evil.
Decided that no human being is capable of doing either consistently and that morality is a feel-good crock of shit.
Sees the entire human existence as grey and relativistic.
Is more depressed by this than she'll ever admit.
Wants the power to deem things good and evil.
Has crap taste in media.
Has watched every Barbara Stanwyck, Rita Hayworth, and Gene Tierney noir movie ever. Over and over.
Was in love, and loved being in love with Wesley.
Hated being in love with Wesley.
Admits that Wesley broke her heart.
Thinks that he probably ruined her life.
Doesn't care and would do it all over again.
Really wanted to fuck Faith.
Still wishes she hadn't let Lee ride in the limo.
Slept with Lindsey for six months in the mid-90s when he still had a mullet. But never with Lee.
Would like to see Lindsey again, if only to break both his shins and tell him off before kissing him just once.
Does not lie about who and what she is.
Prizes honesty and has contempt for the dishonest.
Only lies to those who she can't trust. As this is everyone, she feels she is an honest person.
Does not kill over personal grudges except for the first time.
And that was her father for trying to rape her.
Killed her father on accident, and watched him die on purpose.
Spent the better part of her late teens trying to make up for it, before she realized that no matter what she did, she was damned.
Was more Catholic than Angel.
Decided guilt was a waste of time and never looked back.
Is bisexual, but has always preferred women except for Wesley.
Really likes sex.
Always brought the booze and chocolate when she came over to Wesley's apartment.
Can never pass a mirror without checking herself out.
Would have sex with herself in a second.
Thinks she's fucking amazing in bed.
Is fucking amazing in bed, but not as good as she thinks she is because she's never wholly in the moment and out of control.
Dances, but never in public.
Knows that Fred likes girls and is in denial about it.
Taunts Fred mostly because she finds it tacky that Fred has two hot men tagging behind her and will not admit that she's a lesbian so that Wes can get over it.
Finds Wesley's inner bi manwhore irresistibly sexy.
Wants to watch Wesley and Angel go at it just once.
Forgives Cordelia.
Will never forgive Connor or Angel.
Blames Darla for the entire mess.
Fucked Drusilla and Darla to get out of the wine cellar.
Knows Angel knows, and hates that he knows.
Got off on it when Drusilla fed on her while fucking her and hates that she did.
Finds people incredibly stupid, vain, and boring.
Does not understand why Wesley thinks she would be worse as a World Overlord than Angel.
Is not looking for redemption.
Is not ashamed of anything she did in her life.
Is not afraid of Hell.
Is a little afraid of falling in love with Wesley again, Cordelia, and knowing Angel's secrets.
Is a lot afraid of Wesley doing something gallant to save her.
Is the only one who can save herself.
Isn't sure she wants to.
So now that you know how...go at it!
My Lilah...
Understands that there's a difference between right, good, and feeling good.
Knows the difference between wrong, evil, bad, and feeling bad better than anyone she knows.
Believes wholeheartedly in good and evil.
Decided that no human being is capable of doing either consistently and that morality is a feel-good crock of shit.
Sees the entire human existence as grey and relativistic.
Is more depressed by this than she'll ever admit.
Wants the power to deem things good and evil.
Has crap taste in media.
Has watched every Barbara Stanwyck, Rita Hayworth, and Gene Tierney noir movie ever. Over and over.
Was in love, and loved being in love with Wesley.
Hated being in love with Wesley.
Admits that Wesley broke her heart.
Thinks that he probably ruined her life.
Doesn't care and would do it all over again.
Really wanted to fuck Faith.
Still wishes she hadn't let Lee ride in the limo.
Slept with Lindsey for six months in the mid-90s when he still had a mullet. But never with Lee.
Would like to see Lindsey again, if only to break both his shins and tell him off before kissing him just once.
Does not lie about who and what she is.
Prizes honesty and has contempt for the dishonest.
Only lies to those who she can't trust. As this is everyone, she feels she is an honest person.
Does not kill over personal grudges except for the first time.
And that was her father for trying to rape her.
Killed her father on accident, and watched him die on purpose.
Spent the better part of her late teens trying to make up for it, before she realized that no matter what she did, she was damned.
Was more Catholic than Angel.
Decided guilt was a waste of time and never looked back.
Is bisexual, but has always preferred women except for Wesley.
Really likes sex.
Always brought the booze and chocolate when she came over to Wesley's apartment.
Can never pass a mirror without checking herself out.
Would have sex with herself in a second.
Thinks she's fucking amazing in bed.
Is fucking amazing in bed, but not as good as she thinks she is because she's never wholly in the moment and out of control.
Dances, but never in public.
Knows that Fred likes girls and is in denial about it.
Taunts Fred mostly because she finds it tacky that Fred has two hot men tagging behind her and will not admit that she's a lesbian so that Wes can get over it.
Finds Wesley's inner bi manwhore irresistibly sexy.
Wants to watch Wesley and Angel go at it just once.
Forgives Cordelia.
Will never forgive Connor or Angel.
Blames Darla for the entire mess.
Fucked Drusilla and Darla to get out of the wine cellar.
Knows Angel knows, and hates that he knows.
Got off on it when Drusilla fed on her while fucking her and hates that she did.
Finds people incredibly stupid, vain, and boring.
Does not understand why Wesley thinks she would be worse as a World Overlord than Angel.
Is not looking for redemption.
Is not ashamed of anything she did in her life.
Is not afraid of Hell.
Is a little afraid of falling in love with Wesley again, Cordelia, and knowing Angel's secrets.
Is a lot afraid of Wesley doing something gallant to save her.
Is the only one who can save herself.
Isn't sure she wants to.
So now that you know how...go at it!