Utah
So… I moved to Utah even though I am still gay. Now I am just lonely and gay. I might make an effort to meet another gay person someday, but for now it is just me.
I work at Red Cliff Accent. I have some issues with their medication policies but my other initial concerns have been resolved. This past shift was a good one. I liked this HI better. I didn't agree with one of the girl’s medication plans (ie quit taking all of it as soon as she gets home but not before) but none of my co-staff said anything so I didn't feel that awkward not saying any thing (ie fallowing company policy).
One of my one on ones I agreed with more then her therapist or mother. She is 15 and has been living on her own (frequently homeless) for over a year while still getting A's in school. She is suppose to move in with her mother and the man her mother is marrying tomorrow (I think it is wrong to not allow your daughter to attend your wedding). She wants to live with her mom but doesn't want her mother to stick her nose into all of her business all of the sudden.
The therapist thinks she is egotistical for thinking that she is more mature independent and less petty then most 15 year olds but really had I not been told she was 15 I would of guessed 19 or 20 by the way she looked and acted. The girl had issues (cooperation skills, anger management, and drug addiction) but I think there were some areas that credit was due. She is also a case where I think family therapy would be necessary. Maybe the reason she thinks she can take care of her self and doesn't need anyone else is because no one else has been there in the past.
Anyway it wasn’t a typical case of teenage girl not listening to her mom as was originally portrayed and RCA doesn’t individualize its program enough.
In some ways I suppose it's ok because she has made improvements while at RCA and while all the other kids are complaining about having to camp, hike and eat crappy food, she loves the wilderness and thinks it is awesome that all her meals are just given to her.
In general I wish the opinion of the field staff meant more since there is a lot a therapist that only sees the kids once a week misses. I also wish there was more of a realization that all the kids are different.
I should explain more about my job later. It seems kind of normal to me but I felt weird when I was telling Jocelyn about how I was happy to find a dead horse because it is easier to get fire when you have a knee bone but I didn’t find enough rabbit poop to make glue. At least I don’t have to get up early and shower for work.
Last night after work there were to gatherings of staff. One was a group going to a pizza place. The other a large party where drinking was the main activity. I was the only person invited to both. I chose pizza.
I stopped by my place to shower and there was a note from a guy who used to work at RCA that I met a few weeks ago who had called around to find out where I lived so he could leave me a note with his number. He seems to be operating under a few misconceptions. A. I am heterosexual, B. I am a Mormon, C. I might want to date him. He is a nice guy aside from the fact that he thinks some mentally ill people are possessed so I decided to think about this situation later and go for pizza.
Our pizza group ended up being 8 Mormons (2 single the rest coupled), me and the guy who left me the note. I sat in the center of the table and he was directly across from me with Mormon couples on both sides. I had a great time. They were all fun people that I hope I am invited to go out with again.
Today I have been stuck contemplating the difference between quietly eating pizza as myself and pretending to be someone I am not.
I hate the way this community seems so divided between the Mormons and those out to prove that they are not Mormon. Is anyone NORMAL? I hate that I at times think twice about being myself because people might think I’m Mormon. I don’t really believe in God! Does anyone around here know how to be themselves?
I have an outing planned with some people who are actively not mormon. We will be bowling so I am hoping that they can keep their non mormonness undercontrol for the evening.
I work at Red Cliff Accent. I have some issues with their medication policies but my other initial concerns have been resolved. This past shift was a good one. I liked this HI better. I didn't agree with one of the girl’s medication plans (ie quit taking all of it as soon as she gets home but not before) but none of my co-staff said anything so I didn't feel that awkward not saying any thing (ie fallowing company policy).
One of my one on ones I agreed with more then her therapist or mother. She is 15 and has been living on her own (frequently homeless) for over a year while still getting A's in school. She is suppose to move in with her mother and the man her mother is marrying tomorrow (I think it is wrong to not allow your daughter to attend your wedding). She wants to live with her mom but doesn't want her mother to stick her nose into all of her business all of the sudden.
The therapist thinks she is egotistical for thinking that she is more mature independent and less petty then most 15 year olds but really had I not been told she was 15 I would of guessed 19 or 20 by the way she looked and acted. The girl had issues (cooperation skills, anger management, and drug addiction) but I think there were some areas that credit was due. She is also a case where I think family therapy would be necessary. Maybe the reason she thinks she can take care of her self and doesn't need anyone else is because no one else has been there in the past.
Anyway it wasn’t a typical case of teenage girl not listening to her mom as was originally portrayed and RCA doesn’t individualize its program enough.
In some ways I suppose it's ok because she has made improvements while at RCA and while all the other kids are complaining about having to camp, hike and eat crappy food, she loves the wilderness and thinks it is awesome that all her meals are just given to her.
In general I wish the opinion of the field staff meant more since there is a lot a therapist that only sees the kids once a week misses. I also wish there was more of a realization that all the kids are different.
I should explain more about my job later. It seems kind of normal to me but I felt weird when I was telling Jocelyn about how I was happy to find a dead horse because it is easier to get fire when you have a knee bone but I didn’t find enough rabbit poop to make glue. At least I don’t have to get up early and shower for work.
Last night after work there were to gatherings of staff. One was a group going to a pizza place. The other a large party where drinking was the main activity. I was the only person invited to both. I chose pizza.
I stopped by my place to shower and there was a note from a guy who used to work at RCA that I met a few weeks ago who had called around to find out where I lived so he could leave me a note with his number. He seems to be operating under a few misconceptions. A. I am heterosexual, B. I am a Mormon, C. I might want to date him. He is a nice guy aside from the fact that he thinks some mentally ill people are possessed so I decided to think about this situation later and go for pizza.
Our pizza group ended up being 8 Mormons (2 single the rest coupled), me and the guy who left me the note. I sat in the center of the table and he was directly across from me with Mormon couples on both sides. I had a great time. They were all fun people that I hope I am invited to go out with again.
Today I have been stuck contemplating the difference between quietly eating pizza as myself and pretending to be someone I am not.
I hate the way this community seems so divided between the Mormons and those out to prove that they are not Mormon. Is anyone NORMAL? I hate that I at times think twice about being myself because people might think I’m Mormon. I don’t really believe in God! Does anyone around here know how to be themselves?
I have an outing planned with some people who are actively not mormon. We will be bowling so I am hoping that they can keep their non mormonness undercontrol for the evening.