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I'm watching the Superbowl. Some of the commericals are okay, but not as entertaining as in recent years. I've been flipping around a bit. The game itself is good, but the 'Hawks aren't getting fair treatment by the refs. The Steelers (and yes, I'm routing for them) did NOT make that first touchdown. It was pretty obvious on the replays. I just noticed this today, it's really weird. Football players don't look like humans when they play. They have on these great uniforms, but huge shoulder pads and helmets with visors and bars. They look like some kind of half human/half animal screaming and pushing and tackling. It's so weird. They kind of look like disembodied athlete robots. And it's the randomest thing ever. The Steelers definitely look like they're going to win.
Congrats to them!
I have no nothing much to update, really. I'm still career-less. I'm still feeling like a failure. I'm still apartmentless. I'm still money-less.
I am however trying to have a more positive outlook. I'm tired of feeling like crap about everything and crying about everything. It's lke I'm fueled by nothing but emotion and it's getting out of my control. I'm not sure if it's my getting the BC Patch out of my sysyem or what, but it needs to stop. It's exhausting me, and it cannot be healthy.
I was talking to a friend last night and she was saying how I'm worth optimism and praise. Now, I do work hard. I respect myself too much to let dumb decisions ruin my life, but in all seriousness, I just can't believe that. I'm not trying to be whiny or fish for compliments, I just...I dunno. I feel like an unloveable freak, and have for longer than I ever realized. Probably as long as it matters. I don't even know what I'm saying anymore. I need to be more "GO ME" and less "WOE IS ME!"
There. Done.
Last thing, Justin's apparently perform at another PeaPod charity concert. This is fabulous, he's so giving. I love him. Blah blah blah. But why can't they do things like that here. Of course it's not LA, ew, but it's a place where people would re-mortgage their houses to see their favorite celebrities, all-star concerts, etc. That's my nark of the day. I haven't been to a concert in damn near 18 months. I need ADRENALINE, damnit. I NEED TIMBER-ADRENALINE! :(
That's my two cents.
Congrats to them!
I have no nothing much to update, really. I'm still career-less. I'm still feeling like a failure. I'm still apartmentless. I'm still money-less.
I am however trying to have a more positive outlook. I'm tired of feeling like crap about everything and crying about everything. It's lke I'm fueled by nothing but emotion and it's getting out of my control. I'm not sure if it's my getting the BC Patch out of my sysyem or what, but it needs to stop. It's exhausting me, and it cannot be healthy.
I was talking to a friend last night and she was saying how I'm worth optimism and praise. Now, I do work hard. I respect myself too much to let dumb decisions ruin my life, but in all seriousness, I just can't believe that. I'm not trying to be whiny or fish for compliments, I just...I dunno. I feel like an unloveable freak, and have for longer than I ever realized. Probably as long as it matters. I don't even know what I'm saying anymore. I need to be more "GO ME" and less "WOE IS ME!"
There. Done.
Last thing, Justin's apparently perform at another PeaPod charity concert. This is fabulous, he's so giving. I love him. Blah blah blah. But why can't they do things like that here. Of course it's not LA, ew, but it's a place where people would re-mortgage their houses to see their favorite celebrities, all-star concerts, etc. That's my nark of the day. I haven't been to a concert in damn near 18 months. I need ADRENALINE, damnit. I NEED TIMBER-ADRENALINE! :(
That's my two cents.