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I'm sorry if it seems as though I've been distant lately. I've just been going through some big adjustments and trying to take time to spend with myself. My thoughts, my feelings. Facing demons I thought I'd killed awhile ago. Rekindling old flames and nurturing old friendships. I just needed the space for a bit. I really didn't think it would bother me as much as it did, but hearing that you were dating this girl I guess really got to me. Hence the newest writing. But I'm happy for you. I really am. And it hurts. And it doesn't. And I'll be fine. Seems as though I've found a bit of a special someone as well, so hopefully that plays out in my favor. It's just very diffult. I've got so much on my plate right now. And I almost didn't know how to deal with our whole situation. The thought of you with someone else was a bit too much to handle a few days ago. You know? It's understandable, methinks. But more and more I'm growing up.
I love you, Chris. I always will. You'll always be my best friend. Reguardless of what may come. You mean so much to me. And I'm sorry if I lead you to believe that I was pushing you away. I know it's been hard to coordinate our schedules lately to sit down and have a real chat. And it might prove to be more difficult as I might be getting a second job in Fort Lauderdale. But we'll figure it out. One of these days we've got to get together for a cup of coffee. :). Shoot the shit and spend time as friends.
I really am elated that you've found someone you feel so deeply for. And I truly hope that things work out for the both of you. I only want the best for my best friend. I just hope she realizes what she's got. And you two take care of each other.
Thanks for always being there for me. I can't tell you how much it's meant to have you in my life as a friend.
:) Take care, Assface.
I love you, Chris. I always will. You'll always be my best friend. Reguardless of what may come. You mean so much to me. And I'm sorry if I lead you to believe that I was pushing you away. I know it's been hard to coordinate our schedules lately to sit down and have a real chat. And it might prove to be more difficult as I might be getting a second job in Fort Lauderdale. But we'll figure it out. One of these days we've got to get together for a cup of coffee. :). Shoot the shit and spend time as friends.
I really am elated that you've found someone you feel so deeply for. And I truly hope that things work out for the both of you. I only want the best for my best friend. I just hope she realizes what she's got. And you two take care of each other.
Thanks for always being there for me. I can't tell you how much it's meant to have you in my life as a friend.
:) Take care, Assface.