i was depressed... but now i have reason to be pissed..
Hey, I dont hate you, its not like that at all. no u just dont want me anymore.. its ok.. i understand now. i pushed too much and having a girl thats going to ask for ur time and one that WANTS to take care of u and not just listen to others about u killing urself by working too much isnt something u can handle.. Anna your an amazing girl and I told you this a million times. were 150 miles away and niether one of us are going back to seton hall next year....well now my parents are making me.. so maybe me giving up wasnt supposed to happen.. ill be at seton, and u the QUITTER whos taking it easy at community college bc ur crying over some school loans and letting ur parents run ur life, will NOT be. during school there will be 0 time to see each other and now there is 0 time to see each other.....there isnt time to see each other now bc u refuse to MAKE time... how hard is it to take ONE day off so i can make the trip to see u? I really would like to be friends with you but I understand if you dont want to be. You woke me up and made me see life a little differently. how differently dan? u go back home and ur narrow minded again. u dont try. and here i thought u had grown up... Our priorities are not the same, please tell me how getting through school, having friends and family around for support and making money with a successful career are such bad things? how are urs so different? im sorry if i know how to say i need ppl..i keep forgetting friends arent in ur priorities, let alone ur gf. nor are our viewpoints on prettymuch every part of life itself. another one u have to spell out for me.. ok so what if we fight over gay marriage.. thats life. we were raised with different thoughts... so does that mean u cant deal with other ppl who support freedom of happiness and choices??? You will find an awesome guy I hope and I hope he treats you like the goddess you deserve to be treated as. I'm not that guy and its nothing you did to make it that way, it just didnt work out. i just didnt work out bc u dont know how to make it work. oops.. i think thats my point.. u have to MAKE IT WORK!!! nothing is for free dan. when are u going to realize that? I want to still try to maintain a friendship with you but ill leave that up to you. ur gonna leave the friendship up to me? well the relationship was left up to me and look how i handled that.. bc as i see it i was the one to email, i called, i text messaged.. hmmm.. maybe we shouldnt try the friendship bc its hard enough for u to call me when im the girl ur fucking... take away the sex and why even bother? not like i was worth enough of ur time before! good night and have a good summer and good luck with wutever you do..... hopefully ill talk to you again but if i dont,i really wish you nothing but good now when u say hopefully does that mean u MIGHT NOT call me or email me back? wow.. im used to that by now arent i?
cya around maybe no i wont be seeing u around at all. u work too much remember? and itll still be a long distance friendship and u cant seem to handle anything thats not served to u on a silver plate.
ok so what if im mean about it. i think i deserve the right to defend myself. why is the blame being put onto me about a damn friendship? why is our friendship going ot be so special to u that u can keep that up, when the relationship we had was just the same? it takes energy to keep a friendship going. and u have to actually care about the person. and in caring for them, u dont like to hurt them. and if u do, its not bc u were too stubborn to listen to them, or to accept their help. so no the friendship isnt on me. its on u. whether u talk to me is going to be the deciding factor if a friendship survives. and if i were u i wouldnt bet on it. u dont see to have a very good track record with phone calls. its not ur fault u "dont know what to say". and when u said that all i could think was "BULLSHIT"!!! how can u not know what to say to me? dan its not like i was a stranger.. im the girl u fucking slept with for 3 months.. yeah thats me... the girl u called ur best friend.. not some chic u just saw on the train... but anyway, i do wish u happiness and good luck. bc u will need it. the world is lonely without ppl there to support u. unless ur gonna be 30 and still asking ur parents what to do every time u take a step...
all the apologies, all the admitting i was wrong and letting u see my emotions.. and now im ashamed. i trusted u. i invested time and energy and love and all u did was take it. in the end u see how things really are... and i dont like what i let myself fall in love with. u can be pissed at me all u want, but u dont have a right. u deserve to hear every word i say. and i hope u listen. if not for our "friendship" that u SAY want(but most likely will never attempt to keep), then for the next girl u have a relationship with.