this weeks got a bad start already... :*(
ive worked moderately hard the last week (since tuesday) at my new job.. my first day off was yesterday (saturday) and i spent it hanging out with my weird guys from tbird... and we ended the night at the iron skillet... o yay back at work again. but shelly was there and shes HILARIOUS... lol omg this waitress wants to murder tim and don.. seeing her abuse don made me smile lol sry don.
come home around 4... SO TIRED but i had to stay up so i could actually get sleep BEFORE work.. well i was awake at 12 anyway.. this shit sucks.. TRIED to sleep.. couldnt do it... lol when i TRY to sleep all day i cant.. thats fucked up shit... i work 9pm to 5am tonight so im screwed.. im gonna be soooo tired later.. great.. first night shift and im fucked. and louie isnt even working so i cant slack off...
finally get outta bed at about 5 and check my email.. dan cant make it thursday... and that was the only thing i was actually looking forward to this week... so its just another day off and im gonna try and get all my stuff from my moms house i guess...
last night to keep awake and busy (bc i have no tv to watch, thank u wicked wanna-be step mother!) i made a new cd and i was writting a bit on my laptop, but i didnt like it so i just trashed it... i have hardcore writers block and i dunno why
and i just realized that means im gonan miss the sopranos bc im working 9pm to 5am monday and tuesday.. motherfucker.... thats it.. i quit... no dan, no sopranos, no sleep.. whats the use?
"will u come home and stop this pain tonight?
dont waste ur time on me, ur already the voice inside my head
i miss u i miss u"
"u say its over, i can sigh again, yeah
why try to stay sober when im dying here?"
"Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago ...
Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong"
"is there ever any wonder why we look to the sky?
search in vain, asking why
all alone, where is god?
looking down? we dont know?
we fall in space, we cant look down
death may come, peace i have found."
"dont tell me its not worth fighting for
i cant help it, theres nothing i want more...
theres no love, like ur love
and no other, could give more love
theres nowhere, unless ur there
all the time, all the way"
"i wanted u to know i love the way u laugh...
cause im broken when im open
and i dont feel like i am strong enough
cause im broken when im lonesome
and i dont feel right when ur gone away"
"i said why, why do u make me cry"
"i love u o so well
like a kid loves candy and fresh snow
i love u o so well
enough to fill up heaven, overflow and fill hell...
the world has lost her way again
but u are here with me, but u are here with me
and that makes it ok"
"im sorry that i hurt u
its something i must live with everyday
and all the pain i put u through
i wish that i could take it all away
and be the one who catches all ur tears"
"if i didnt act on my addictions, then we couldnt stare"
"there must be someplace here that only u and i could go
so i can show u how i dream away everyday...
ill never leave u behind
or treat u unkind
i know u understand
and with a tear in my eye
give me the sweetest goodbye"
"however far away, i will always love u
however long i stay, i will always love u
whatever words i say, i will always love u
i will always love u"
"ive got nothing that i hide except for whats inside
i keep it all locked up, in this prison we call love"
"u fill me up, ur in my veins
a look could take my breath away...
its just like poetry inside to hear u breathing by my side
like im in heaven and ive died
so glad ur with me for this ride...
i see ur face to start my day
makes my all bad dreams go away
and all the stupid games we play
wouldnt have it any other way"
"but everything inside u knows
says more than what uve heard
so much more than empty conversations
filled with empty words...
u are the hope i have for change
u are the only chance ill take...
im on fire when ur near me
im on fire when u speak"
"some might tell u theres no hope in hell
just bc they feel hopeless
but u dont have to be a thing like that
u be a ship in a bottle set sail"
"i doubt this will ever subside in me, can u accept that?
i doubt anyone will ever love u like me, cant i accept that?
i doubt anyone will ever make u feel the way i make u feel, can we accept that?"
"carry me away, i need ur strength to get me through this
dare to believe for one last time"
"stay or leave, i want u not to go, but u should
it was good as good goes
stay or leave, i want u not to go, but u did"
"to see u when i wake up is a gift i didnt think could be real
to know u feel the same as i do is a three-fold utopian dream
u do something to me that i cant explain
so would i be out of line if i said i miss u?
to see ur picture, i smell ur skin on ur empty pillow next to me
u have only been gone 10 days, but already i am wasting away
i know i will see u again, whether far or soon,
but i need u to know that i care and i miss u"