Craziness
I've come to the conclusion that this week has been one of the craziest weeks of my life. I've ended something, started something, and am in the midst of finding what I want to do for the rest of my life. All the decisions I make now are really going to matter, and I hate the feeling of regret.
Throughout all of the week I have been just enjoying my own company which maybe I haven't done in a long time. For so long I depended on Ben for everything, which let me tell you is a bit to ask of someone. I've gone out to eat, to the movies, and of course how could I resist shopping? I've bought a few new cds hoping that I will find something amazing in the music that will help to find my way through all of what is going on.
In the middle of this love triangle I am in right now I found a school that I would really love to go to. It's in Tampa and it's very expensive. I'm torn between staying here and starting a life or going there and going broke. Hmmm...tough call (I mean that without an overly extreme amount of sarcasm). Dammit I just want to be out of school and helping people. Earlier I said I should work for RAINN, which might not be a bad idea at all. That would be pretty cool if you ask me....
Throughout all of the week I have been just enjoying my own company which maybe I haven't done in a long time. For so long I depended on Ben for everything, which let me tell you is a bit to ask of someone. I've gone out to eat, to the movies, and of course how could I resist shopping? I've bought a few new cds hoping that I will find something amazing in the music that will help to find my way through all of what is going on.
In the middle of this love triangle I am in right now I found a school that I would really love to go to. It's in Tampa and it's very expensive. I'm torn between staying here and starting a life or going there and going broke. Hmmm...tough call (I mean that without an overly extreme amount of sarcasm). Dammit I just want to be out of school and helping people. Earlier I said I should work for RAINN, which might not be a bad idea at all. That would be pretty cool if you ask me....