creativity...
...you know. One day, someone, somewhere will recognise that I'm bursting with energy, that I'm raring to go with so many ideas and that all I want to do is create. Someone will notice and give me the opportunity. Instead of just nodding, saying hmmm yes and then moving on to the next person.
I really do have a lot to offer, I just wish I could put it to some use.
then again, maybe I don't. I obviously can't do otherwise I'd be using it now instead of making cryptic whiny posts on Livejournal.
I suddenly feel quite sad now.
Ad's band are doing well. They've been signed up for some Mean Fiddler gigs i think they have one at the Garage in December, they're headlining Lark in the Park, they're apparently being signed up for online distribution, they have a sort of manager, a photo shoot. They had group shots and profiles. He could have smiled just a little, but its cute.
Guess this means that the only way is up. I suppose I should give up any hope of seeing him for a year. This sucks. I always thought we would see our dreams through together. I want to be there when he plays gigs, i want to be in the front row and if i don't get to see the world's most beautiful sunset with him then i don't want to see it with anyone else.
I feel so alone.
I really do have a lot to offer, I just wish I could put it to some use.
then again, maybe I don't. I obviously can't do otherwise I'd be using it now instead of making cryptic whiny posts on Livejournal.
I suddenly feel quite sad now.
Ad's band are doing well. They've been signed up for some Mean Fiddler gigs i think they have one at the Garage in December, they're headlining Lark in the Park, they're apparently being signed up for online distribution, they have a sort of manager, a photo shoot. They had group shots and profiles. He could have smiled just a little, but its cute.
Guess this means that the only way is up. I suppose I should give up any hope of seeing him for a year. This sucks. I always thought we would see our dreams through together. I want to be there when he plays gigs, i want to be in the front row and if i don't get to see the world's most beautiful sunset with him then i don't want to see it with anyone else.
I feel so alone.