today

May 03, 2009 20:52

got up too early

4:30 am to a crying little girl covered in chicken pox

she wasn't crying about the chicken pox though, she was crying because her throat hurt again

the surgery for her can't come soon enough, how many mornings can a 6 year old wake up with a throat so sore it makes her cry?

at this rate, based on her averages, by the end of her 7th year on this planet it will be rounding 1000

i hate (yes, hate) the pediatrician who ignored all the signs of apnea to the point where i had to take her to a different doc to find out the
route of her sleeping problems

i've slept about 3-5 hours a night for the last 7 years

i hate myself for not going to a different doctor sooner, mostly because hannah has also slept about 3-5 hours a night for the last 7 years

difference is i wake up when she wakes me up

she wakes up when her body forgets to take a breath in

all in all she's handling the chicken pox like a champ, only a few whimpers, mostly when she's sleeping

never scratches them, and just coasts by without complaint

hoping her sister won't break out this week, that would suck, 7 more weeks of classes

d gets all the love when we're out and about today

i knew this before, but it is really evident when we're around a few certain people who go on and on about her eyes and her hair

and her sassy

the girls have the same eyes, different hair, different sass

she's easier to love on the surface, accepts you with open arms, but everything is a negotiation once you've fallen for her charm

h carries the negotiation process when she's trying to figure out if she can love you back, once she lets you in there are no more bargaining

h's love is unconditional... d's comes with a slightly higher price

in any case, did yard work most of the day, i'm burnt to a crisp, h has a tan, d was covered in spf60 so she's good too
trying to get the basement sorted... there may or may not be before and after photos (it's pretty bad now, not sure if i want to share that with the world)
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