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man, i had the weirdest dream EVER....ask me about it later, ill tell u....
done u hate it when u end up saying sorry for something u didnt even do, but u say it anyways to get things better---u try to be the better person....now, im fustrated because i WANT to be the better person, but im frickin TIRED of saying sorry for crap im not sorry for. UGH. and when im angry and the person im angry at is talking to me, i start yelling and raising my voice.....UGH....i cant help it. its all natural. lol. but anyways, im tired of trying to make her and my friendship better....im trired of being the one striving to help our relationship. when is she every going to step up? NEVER. should i not strive and see what happens, or should i give her her....100th chance? who knows. so i say i dont wanna be the one making the friendship better...and she turns it round and says, so u dont care about our relationship? gosh she has a way of words....what do i do? dammit. im fucked. i jus wanna say fuck our relationship, i have other friends there for me, and im so grateful for that. then, itll be 6 years of my life im wasting. daaaammmit. i wish i could pay someone to take my place and make it all better again. too bad it dont work like that, cause i sho would pay. then again, if i do, then i wouldnt learn from my mistakes.....
done u hate it when u end up saying sorry for something u didnt even do, but u say it anyways to get things better---u try to be the better person....now, im fustrated because i WANT to be the better person, but im frickin TIRED of saying sorry for crap im not sorry for. UGH. and when im angry and the person im angry at is talking to me, i start yelling and raising my voice.....UGH....i cant help it. its all natural. lol. but anyways, im tired of trying to make her and my friendship better....im trired of being the one striving to help our relationship. when is she every going to step up? NEVER. should i not strive and see what happens, or should i give her her....100th chance? who knows. so i say i dont wanna be the one making the friendship better...and she turns it round and says, so u dont care about our relationship? gosh she has a way of words....what do i do? dammit. im fucked. i jus wanna say fuck our relationship, i have other friends there for me, and im so grateful for that. then, itll be 6 years of my life im wasting. daaaammmit. i wish i could pay someone to take my place and make it all better again. too bad it dont work like that, cause i sho would pay. then again, if i do, then i wouldnt learn from my mistakes.....