lost years
there might be a better reason, moment, quote or theory to live by but i dont know it.
I am in constant reality that is full of dreams, hopes and wishes.
And yet i am stuck and i am stuck because i care
Because the reality is that i cannot say or make myself even process a thought of leaving. As if i had obligations here. And yet if i was to disappear tomorrow, it would make "almost" no difference. And that kind of makes me feel good. No one should depend only on one person. So why is it that at 21 (about to be 22 in two months) i am more confused than at 15. I sit alone and know that i am doomed to be alone for at least another half a year (this might be boblical times that can mean 500 years) cus i cant gather the courage to admit to the entire world that i failed at the one relationship that is "supposed to be forever." So to this i say.... "whateva!!!!!" i just want to shower and sleep now.
I am in constant reality that is full of dreams, hopes and wishes.
And yet i am stuck and i am stuck because i care
Because the reality is that i cannot say or make myself even process a thought of leaving. As if i had obligations here. And yet if i was to disappear tomorrow, it would make "almost" no difference. And that kind of makes me feel good. No one should depend only on one person. So why is it that at 21 (about to be 22 in two months) i am more confused than at 15. I sit alone and know that i am doomed to be alone for at least another half a year (this might be boblical times that can mean 500 years) cus i cant gather the courage to admit to the entire world that i failed at the one relationship that is "supposed to be forever." So to this i say.... "whateva!!!!!" i just want to shower and sleep now.